"Palindrome Syndrome"

New Doggy! New Thoughts!

2011-01-26T03:47:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps, long time no blog. My personal criteria for blogging has become more stringent - basically only essential items/events/experience/thoughts can appear here. Haha... one such unique, one-in-a-million, awesome thing just happened to my family!!!!! :D

We adopted a dog!

She's a 4 years old Female 13" Beagle. Name that my sis got for her is just totally awesome - Google. Cause she's a sniffer, searches for stuff. Google search. Get it? Hee hee...

Olive is not too happy at first... pissed that attention is gonna be divided now. But come day 2... OMG! Google is just following Olive around like a love-struck schoolgirl! Haha.. they're like best pals now, even greeting me at the door one stacked on another. ;)

Will really do my best for Google and Olive.. kept feeling like I didn't do enough for Tabby... :( Sorry girl.

我就是这样的...

2010-11-08T05:11:00.000-08:00

我就是这样的人，太容易被感动，也太容易心动。
我就是这样的人，一旦喜欢上某一个人，就是喜欢，有些莽撞。
我就是这样的人，只能是这样的人。

想要帅帅的处理，想要静静的离开。
不希望让你担心，不希望自己伤心。
知道这是唯一的选择，也知道自己该做的，
但心仍是痛的，仍是想着的。
问你怎么忘，问你怎么不想；怎么回复微笑？
要的只不过是一点关心，一些问候，你的讯息。

我会让自己快乐的，相信我吧。
需要的只是时间，只是勇气，
去放弃'可能', 放弃'或许', 放弃你。

我就是这样的人，只能是这样的人。

A Dream...

2010-09-26T21:55:00.000-07:00

So long since my last post.. need to get this out somewhere so might as well...

Last night i had a dream.
I dreamt I was talking to you over the phone.

Then you met with an accident.
There was a huge crash and a scream.

I called up all the hospitals.. That's when i realized i knew so little about you.
Recep: "Patient's name?"
I told them yours.
Recep: "His age?"
I don't know. I'm really bad at numbers.
Recep: "His birthday?"
I don't know... I had an awkward urge to laugh. You probably don't care either.
Recep: "Hold on please..."

I found you.

By the time i rushed to the hospital.. your entire family was there.
I introduced myself as your friend.
They nodded.
I sat alone at the line of hard-backed waiting chairs, a little away from the rest of your family,
The lights in the hospital were really glaring. I glanced at my shoes... Time passed.

Your Mum: "Are you the girl who went kite flying with my son?"
I said yes.
Your Mum: "You can leave now. We'll be here to care for him."
I pleaded to stay.. "I'll leave the moment he wakes up.. He doesn't have to see me. Please let me stay for now."

Her footsteps shuffled away.
I bought coffee from the vending machine... They come in little white styrofoam cups.
I handed them out to your family, I had none.
I went back to the line of chairs.
I noticed your little nephew.. and remembered what he said to you the other day.
He's really cute.

Time passed.
You're lying on the hospital bed, struggling to breathe.
Your family's around you.
I stood alone at the corridor and willed you to open your eyes.

You are waking up.
I took a step forward, then remembering my promise, I turned to leave.

I woke up from the dream.
Simply opened my eyes and I'm back in my own bed.
My eyes hurt.
Another day...

We've Created.

2009-04-28T21:41:00.000-07:00

It was an amazing day... In fact, it was so great that i couldn't even begin to describe. Perhaps if you ever had a great burden lift off your shoulders after a great many number of days, if you had seen the reward spilling from a piece of work which took you 2, 3 years to complete, then maybe you would understand. But otherwise, i don't see how you can possibly feel what each of us felt that day. Amazing...

The School of Art, Design and Media held our first ever FYP show on 28th April 2009, showcasing works from all majors - Visual Communication, Product Design, Interactive Media, Film, Photography and Animation, with artworks spanning from still shots to prototypes, from sketches to actual film reels. All these proved one thing - We, ADM's pioneer batch (05/06), have created.

These are some high standards for the later generations to keep up with. But then again, where are the surprises if these were to get too easy? Well, most importantly though, have fun while creating, because in the end, that's all that matters.

Cheers,
Ellen

長大了。

2009-04-20T08:47:00.000-07:00

I have 'grown uped' a tad over the past few years in ADM. It wasn't a complete waste of time after all.

I have gotten to know and learn under some great teachers.
I have gotten to know film. I don't understand it completely, but I realized it's something I love.
I have gotten to know friends, and even worked with people whom I couldn't quite comprehend.
I have gotten to taste relationships, bizarre and complicated things they are; but i loved every of these memories, bitter or sweet.
I have gotten to know myself, what I want, and what I need. Getting them is not a definite, but thing is, I see.
I have gotten to know my family, and appreciate them for all there is.

I am truly glad to have been in ADM, no matter how much complaints there had been. And to all fellow 4th year Pioneer Batch of ADMers... It had been a really fun 4 years.. ^-^ I really couldn't see myself knowing a batch more fun and colourful than you all!

2009-04-07T10:33:00.000-07:00

I'll have to admit,
I'm not in the best of moods these days.

I'm bothered by his coldness,
I'm uncomfortable with the distance.
I'm unused to the void that used to be his place.

I told a friend that I don't care.
I told her that he's just not being fair.

Well... I kept telling myself the same.
That perhaps, he's just a friend in name.

I didn't even know what made him leave.
And if it's my fault, listen up boy

I'm truly sorry.

就

2009-03-29T03:38:00.000-07:00

不知怎麼了，
不知何時的，
快要瘋掉了，
遲些時候嘛，
問他怎麼了呀，
忍著眼淚嗎？
讓他去吧，
把他忘了吧，
想放手啊，
舍不的吧．．．

I think...

2009-03-26T08:01:00.000-07:00

Okie, this is scary.

I'm really affected by his moods. But I don't know why.
I want him to be happy. But I'm not sure why.
I wish he'd care. But why should he?

Yup... summary. He's the same guy that taught me about "被人慰婉距绝”. Maybe he's doing just that to me now... Before I go even further. But why not just spell it out? It's harsh, yes. But clearer... and I don't have to guess.

It's like.... Soooo Long Since.

2009-02-11T22:37:00.000-08:00

Yup... i'm back with a post since god-knows-when...

This is turning out to be a really surreal semester. I can't really make myself feel interested in schoolwork. I'm beginning to think like, "this degree, it's cool, ya. But so what?" Haiz... turns out that our batch is really feeling the O.o now that FYP is rolling underway.

Lots of unhappiness over that the last semester, then suddenly, it just felt that someone turned off the lights and everyone decided that the best way for it is to just remain off. Put a gaffer tape over that switch. No point arguing, fighting for something that doesn't really exist.

Singapore's First Fine Arts Degree in Digital Filmmaking

Geez... We should first have degrees like Hospitality Towards Filmmakers, Management of Locations for Film Shoots and Friendly Enemies for Filmmakers-Wannabe first... Soon, we'd be thrown out there, soon, we'd have to choose our paths. And I'm already seeing a lot of pathfinders turn followers emerge. This is sad.

Alright, enough of the emo-cloud. I'm passing it. Just do wad i can in Production Design for now, learn as i work, get those portfolios out (and another thing, I suck at portfolios.. >.<) So well, work harder then! Going to school soon, some discussion about art dept for a new production. Let's make it work.

Best Birthday Gifts! Ever!!!

2008-10-23T08:20:00.000-07:00

Birthday's coming in a couple of days... But even before that, I've received some of the best gifts ever from everyone!!! ^ _ ^

Mom & Dad got me BAMBOO!!! Geez... it's a beauty. I shall name it.. Putih. Coz it's white. Sooo pReeTttyy!!!! O.o

Aunt Angelia & Sis got me these babies! OMG... Sin City's awesome! Haha

An absolutely sexy pair of of black strappies plus an equally alluring Monologue Sketchbook to go with - Courtesy of the 4 JJ Babes! WooT!

Finally! Group foto everyone! Except the shoes of course... Not in my room. Haha.. Sweet!

A big, big thank you to everyone who got me these. Really appreciate it!

Lastly... a week ago, i caught a strange sight on the couch in the living room (WARNING: this has nothing to do with the previous topic.):

And I've always thought cats were supposed to be such elegant creatures... Tak Glam lar Olive!!! Haha... Baby still manages to sleep like an angel sometimes though...

Don't worry, I've checked. The fishes are still in the tank. Haha.. Okay, and that's all for my "Since-god-knows-when" post... Sleep....

Show...

2008-07-22T09:33:00.000-07:00

It's been a long while since I wrote anything in here...

It's been even longer since my last entry about a movie... so here you go... From my point of view:

BATMAN - THE DARK KNIGHT
Never has a movie been so aptly named. Never has a villain so twistedly portrayed. Never has a male lead so little close-ups...
Well... Never. But it's all happening now...
The late actor Heath Ledger gave a great, applause-winning, conscience-tugging, climax-pushing performance in his role as Joker - One of the most twisted fiend in the history of comics, and the best with his job as an anarchist of chaos (however chaotic that means). Fear and Anarchy are what his role inspired, The Joker is what he gave.
Christian Bale was charming... A sad, lone charming man. And he is really, really, really good at portraying that, and the cold, 'unbeatable' glimmer of hope for Gotham. He cuts a believable hero... Not a guy that's running green and amok in CG...
Other plus factors? A good stronghold of cast, nobody outshone who... everyone was there, in Gotham. Nearly 3 hours of adrenaline pumping action. Expertly written script (pretty well-structured given what the whole film is about...). Moments that stand out (shall not spoil this... I have mine, go watch for yours). Excellent sound design. Did I mention how the special effects actually look real? Oh, and best of all, it's better than Christopher Nolan's first. Do mind that some may find this film too overwhelming. It could mean both ways - good:It has much to say; bad: it was saying too much, how am I supposed to sit back, watch and relax? The answer is: You Don't. It's not a blockbuster that makes you feel good, walking out of the lightening theatre... It's a blockbuster alright, but it questions, reveals and probes... Look not at the screen for character development, Bruce Wayne is gonna be a stubborn, costume-wearing vigilante FULL-STOP. Joker will go back to Arkham... and he's probably gonna walk right out again...

Nooo... Look somewhere closer... somewhere like the mirror.

Dust covers...

2008-05-23T10:54:00.000-07:00

I want to buy that Sandman Dust Covers!!! Geez... It's been in my mind for the past 1 year alrdy... And that bicycle which I can call my own??? 1 month plus... and no sign of a wheel... Heesh... *Blows dust from the blog screen*... Finally, I'm adding something again...

Confidence comes with a fighting spirit. I don't wanna be the person that starts off so aggressively and then only to back down in the end. Taking up teaching of art to kids is a good start I guess... Let's see how things go...

Nine Lives' shoot is nearing its chaotic end... Finally... but geez... I'm gonna miss it. Met so many new friends on the set that I seem to be riding on a whirlwind of 'novelty'... Even a spark of new beginning has been found there - I'm determined to be strong for you... with you. It feels different, nicely different... so... ^-^

Phobia of newspapers - heard that from someone recently... Guess I have that problem these days too... Look up to the sky and question, "So, what's next?" The reply was a simple one, "It's a lesson, learn from it..."

I'm learning to cherish. Someone else half the globe away is learning to cope. Another beside me learns to give; We are all learning... Arranging and re-arranging our lives to the new cracks and folds of the new world, carving new paths into the rubbles and old gods that have fallen... A new time is here. Is this His way? Who are we to judge? Personally, I believe it to be a good time for people to start looking inwards...

I shall end here and update more soon enough.. soon I'll be typing jibberish... need that sleep...

250.

2008-04-16T22:15:00.000-07:00

250th post... my new target.

I want to buy a bicycle and stuff it in a secluded corner in ADM so tht i can take it out and ride arnd the school whenever possible... miss the days of weekend cyclings.. East Coast anyone???

ANyway, i had a horrifying dream last night... >.< Related to the MTV that's gonna be screened this Saturday. I dreamt tht I had submitted the our 'finalized' sequence without checking and that something had shifted in the film! Shitz.. totally F***** up dream... and to think I even doubled back to check in my own dream sequence!

And worse of all, was hearing Scotty in my non-waking state, "So Ellen and Felice, please explain what does this chunk of boring images mean??" OMG....... help!!! I confess that I'm really stressed up.. I confess tht I'm crossing my fingers for the MTV's reception... I confess that I'm not in the best of moods recently...

BUT PLEASE!!! No more such dreams k??? When I woke up (not without terribly difficulty and a raging headache), it took me nearly 10 minutes to finally convince myself that I HAD INDEED, CHECKED and RE-CHECKED the edit before submission and that my artist DID NOT USE A RED HAND BAND in the MTV.. all proven, that made the previous accusations, a mere nightmare FULL STOP. Ok... i should go study...

Tear...

2008-04-16T02:54:00.000-07:00

There goes Clementi's long-standing Pool + movie + Macdonalds... I'll miss it...

Studying at home now... watching the Sun as it disappears into the horizon. Looking at the blinking lights from the never-sleeping harbour. Listening to Emil's song on the lab top.

The bunch of mannequins Felice and I used for our MTV shoot, Take Me Away by Pangaea. Screening this Saturday, ADM, 2pm! Mannequins will be for sale and rental.. check back soon.

The sound from the passing traffic overwhelms the senses, not in the unpleasant way. I can smell the scent of pending rain, mixed with the sweet aroma of Nainai's cooking. The sky is plain, not boring though, and a sudden thought, Freedom lies ahead.

I wanna go sing K, watch hordes of movies and go Kukup after exams... sheesh...

Measured by...

2008-04-12T08:56:00.000-07:00

Alone in the Editing/FEL lab, I started to ponder about an idea that someone had put into my head. The Question formulated itself, unintentionally. And soon, I felt it, the Big Q, seep into the tiny crevices of the mind, like a slow working poison...

"What is your worth?"

It then sprouted into branches bearing tiny little stinging questions, each issuing a more painful poke at the heart than the last:

"What determines your importance as a person?"
"Your Friends? Family?"
"Who are they?"
"Where are they?"
"What makes you You?
"Is it Love? Is it Anger? Is it the thrill right after?"
"Is it an e-mail? A word of concern? A chat on the phone?"
"Who are You to Them?"
"A helper? A member? A smile and a 'bye'?"
"What is your purpose? What is your goal? What is the one thing you'll always want to hold?"
"How are you living life?"
"To please? To succeed? Or just be normal, unseen and blend in?"

GEez... I don't think I like how my mind is functioning right now - spasming in a whirlpool of pessimism.. >.<
I promise I'dl be alright again, when the crowd returns and the night turns day... When the lab is filled by voices, laughter, cheery and gay; when someone asks, "Let's go catch a movie ok?"...

Shall start on editing again in 15min time...

Untitled

2008-04-11T23:43:00.000-07:00

Reached school at 2pm. Gonna start editing MV at 3...

Had some inspiration yesterday... So editing went like a breeze. The new cut for the MV was finally likable in my personal opinion and it received good feedbacks too...^-^ YAy!

Feel like going to Kbox...

"Everyone's life is like a book. The author, that is you, decides on the main storyline of the book and everyone that you meet, adds their twists to the pages...

What is your story?"

Yesterday...

2008-04-08T19:35:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, we had an 80s rewind session in the editing suite. It all started with the search for lyrics to a song titled "Two Beds and a Coffee Machine" by Savage Garden. A sad sad song that makes the heart cringe... >.<

Then SQ started to recommend more songs from Savage Garden.. and Felice Jie came in and thus began her ultimate quest - to search for songs from 'the-era-long-gone'.

From Spice Girl's "Viva Forever" sprouted songs from Boyzone, N'sync (god I love them...) and then to Westlife (Screams!) and Backstreet Boys... We had a fine time, singing along to their conclusively expensive-looking MVs. Then a passionate discussion about - the good hot looks a 'macdonalds'-parting (hair) gives to boys issued. Then Danny San came in and all discussion ceased coz he wants to start lamenting on his MV edit... tsk...

I am at home today... going to do my Modern Art Essay in 5 min time and I'm still trying to brush away any attempts at procrastinating on my own part. Will be stuck in FEL doing bits of editing on our own MV tonight.. and maybe tmr night.. and the night after...

OH BLAh... i need to breathe... O.o

Of Chain Reactions...

2008-03-29T15:34:00.000-07:00

The large, pinkish sea anemone turned to a dull flaky grey, it's matter no longer palpable, a disintegrating mushy compound swept away by the net, and into the bin.

The sea cucumber died.

The crabs are no longer crawling.

The white sands are littered with black death.

The hum of the light filter moaned the clown's silence.

The small grey sea anemone died with the blue fish in its jaws.

The skunk is nowhere to be seen.

The green damsel is past its distress.

What else can I say? It is a terribly beautiful chain-reaction....

Should have changed the water yesterday night... >.<

It is 5 days after...

2008-03-25T11:39:00.000-07:00

the Music Video shoot. Heesh... still feeling the drain. Stupid bio-clock is now officially haywired. Been sleepwalking in school recently, Kenny even thinks that I stay IN SCHOOL all the time... O.o WTH... "Wake up time" is now 5pm in the late afternoon... sheesh... Unhealthy ar...

I wanna watch "The Orphanage"... seems like a cool show. BUT irritatingly, have to balance the 'I wants' and 'I need tos'... the precarious positioning these choices in the mind is surely tempting to upset for any normal being. And I am not a very logical person... Today, a chatting session got me to start thinking about the future - and I've realised that.........

BLEAK is the word to describe the uninviting prospects. Oh well...

Btw, T-W-E-A-K is my second most favourite word... after S-P-L-E-E-N. Nothing sounds as nice as the latter...Okie... the need to sleep is finally kicking in... And it is only now, at this very moment, when i've realised that all i've written, is just so, O.o

Only possible adjective...

1 more day to...

2008-03-20T08:40:00.000-07:00

Music Video Shoot on 21st March 2008, DAY 1.

Yes...it should feel clinical. It is MEANT to feel clinical. Heesh...

I wanna run away from all these... just for a day... Somewhere with blue skies and white fluffy clouds, some place with soothing whispers from the waves and melodious cawing of the sea birds, some space I can breathe and feel free...

Who will go with me?

Till the stars blink their gentle reminder, till the moon show in her prettiest garment, till the blanket of night lies on waking dreams...

Who will stay with me?

Scott probably, with his constant nagging of DEADLINES and HOW AM I GOING TO GRADE YOUs... Gross... I need a break. Hesselsoff sux... MTV is scary... I feel alone... >.<

或许吧！

2008-03-18T08:27:00.000-07:00

This is a totally random blog post. It's my Music Video shoot this friday and I AM NERVOUS!

Yes, I should be like, totally prepared...with every little thing confirmed and double-checked, certified that nothing would go wrong. But then again... NOTHING is predictable. And i think it would be safe to say tht both Felice and I had not reached the mentioned scenario, YET.

Lots to confirm, loose-ends to tie up, blah... I'm going in with a explorer attitude I guess, willing to accept all the shit tht might clog up, to be surprised by all, well, surprises...and lastly to learn with every step. Of course, this is a really good chance for me and Felice Jie to 'play' with the lighting and the use of minimalist techniques when shooting. Using up too much money... have to cut down cost le..think something else besides Pizza?? *hint hint* to all my crew. Haha...

It might turn out great, it might turn out horrific... who knows? Just a big 'Thank You' for all who have agreed to help... and to my actor and actress, a BIG FAT HUG just for agreeing to do this... Lastly, Pangea, for the lovely song.. =) Felice Jie, Kempatae!

Just...

2008-03-12T08:50:00.001-07:00

This is the song taught at HC805 today.

I've never had a song that meant to me so much the first time I heard it, so just wanna share it. By the way, is there anyone who can find the mp3 for this??

叶子词/曲：胡海泉

（有一个失明的女孩叫叶子是我的好朋友
我知道在她心里面她看得见一切）

在她透明的心儿里面有一个角落
那里停放着善良的故事和动人的传说
这个世界没有欺骗也没有争夺
美丽的女孩叫叶子她经常这么说

在她透明的眼睛里面有一片湖泊
那里沉浸着喜悦的伤感和忧郁的欢乐
它的水面上没有涟漪也没有颜色
长长的睫毛闪烁着无尽的猜测

（叶子问）
爱情是什么颜色的如果忧郁是蓝色的
快乐是什么颜色的如果寂寞是灰色的
天空是什么颜色的如果汪洋是蓝色的
我说天空也是蓝色的因为它们彼此相爱了

爱情是什么颜色的如果记忆是模糊的
渴望是什么颜色的如果时间是静止的
永恒是什么颜色的如果呼吸是短暂的
我想我只好沉默因为这问题地球它也在思考着

透明是什么颜色的如果风儿是快乐的
叶子的眼睛是透明的心是心是快乐的
（心是快乐的）

Old Well

2008-03-11T08:54:00.000-07:00

Of which nothing is said and it almost seemed like nothing is happening.

The girl clasped the pebble in her hands,
a brown round pebble, smooth and cold.

She made a silent wish and let go.
Whereupon a tiny splash was heard in the depths,
the girl then turned and left.

夜 . 思

2008-03-10T11:59:00.000-07:00

三点。电脑仍是开著的，Felice姐在十分钟前已睡‘死’了，而我仍是对著影幕上的20% Rendering 发呆。
疲累的脑袋应是空荡荡的．．．

“你太激动了！”

早知，那天就不问了；还能存有幻想，心里可以是甜丝丝的。现在的心，有著十足的防备；不想再让自己上演场独角戏。

50% Rendering... 我好累。

Hmm..

2008-03-09T07:14:00.001-07:00

Hmm...just hmm...

More Work.

2008-03-05T06:37:00.000-08:00

Mish... here's preview (and very brief list) of the workload that's piling up:

- Music Video Shoot (Prep and Production)
- Last lap for Docu (Thank Heavens... and rather happy with it too!)
- Modern Art Essay (Research and Writing)

And there's the dreaded Hi-Def. class... honestly.. No offence, but i was almost forced into taking the course as I have no other choice. Why O why didn't more sign up for Storyboarding???? *Ish* and I REALLY have no affinity with menus of Big Scary Recording Equipment. Now the unfair thing is that it's occuring like it's rightful to take place TWICE a week. There's other stuff to do...

HC805 was fun though, Prof. Liang Wen Fook was really good... makes me wanna sing K everytime.

Oh, and did I mention that the ONLY helpful lesson for Professional Practice was the one conducted by the lawyer? And the only one with life, apparently... Granted...I'm bitching, too much perhaps, but everyone's entitled to it once in a while...

Have a great March holidays kids... While you're still wearing those uniforms, treasure the life when your brains need not ceaselessly wander into the area called 'future'.

I WANNA GO K-BOX.
I WANT TO WATCH Kelvin Tong's RULE #1
I want to watch ThE PillOwMan
I want to sit and watch a sunset, without a care for MV or ScottHasselsoff...

LeAp.

2008-02-29T08:12:00.000-08:00

Wanted to blog about Feb 29... but saw the clock and realized that i'm too late.. It's the 1st of March today... Happy March Holidays kids! Anyway... Feb 29 is like such a cool day...

Danny says: "For one day! We don't exist... Nothing is real today."

ShiQi says: "Oh yay! Extra day! Let's slack.."

Ellen ponders: "So does that mean there's 366 days this year?"

Heez... another 4 years to this special day! Just wanna wish every one out there:

"HAvE a HiPpity hAppy LEApiNg yEaR aHeaD!!!"

This is a cool quote and a strong consoling voice for some out there:

“Books aren't written - they're rewritten. Including your own. It is one of the hardest things to accept, especially after the seventh rewrite hasn't quite done it.”
- Michael Crichton

Life's Littlest Surprises

2008-02-26T20:31:00.000-08:00

Jaja! Jan postponed the meeting to tmr 12noon. Good for all of us... more time to record that scratch track thingy and to do up more decent-looking edit.

I stepped onto the huge rock, beneath me, the crashing waves. Each hurling itself towards the surface of the rock like sweet revenge, seeping into the crevices like silent venom, drawing from within, both life and death. Taking my eyes from this savage act, I looked to the horizon. A yellow-blue line, a fragment of sailors' imagination of false lands and hope. It is only human.

Hmm.. I'm feeling poetic these days. LoL~ More work coming up! Jitto san's shoot this saturday... have to complete editing, truth-be-told, I'm sick of it already. Have to plan for the Music Video shoot... Danny and ShiQi's shoot's coming up too... Jeez..

Kindle.

2008-02-26T07:31:00.000-08:00

Lit up the new aroma oil burner for the first time today... Mum was pretty enthusiastic about the whole thing...

Pretty thing that casts both shadow and light on the floor, for a moment, the room seemed to be illuminated by its shimmering light alone. And then all things settled and it's just a burner again.

Not a good enough justification of the new addition to the room... still.......

Anyway, here's a quote that comes to the tired mind:

"Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart."

- Rose Walker to Desire in The Kindly Ones, Sandman

A true reminder for one to be mindful when stepping out for "the ditches are filled with murky waters in an instant. The fiends would not know its treacherous depth or of the spikes jaunting out from the hard ground." Makes the cautious retreat, and the subdues the curious doesn't it? Haha...

Eminent Happiness

2008-02-26T06:33:00.000-08:00

Today... I'm feeling happy for absolutely no reason at all. I'm finally comprehending the holiday at hand, tasting the bittersweetness of freedom and basically, living it.

All these happened in a miraculous span of 3 hours with the family in front of the TV. The magnificent hours of time wasting and aimless wandering within the four walls that suddenly seemed to extend to the amazing length of a football field. Wholly free. Yes... I've even paused and heard the sound of passing time that trickled ever so softly through the gaps of your fingers.

It is the beauty of uncaring nature, the very same that brought surfers to the most dangerous seas, and bungee jumpers to the rockiest of cliffs and explorers to the deepest jungles. This nature now calls to me, its beckoning a seductive whisper in my ear. I walked towards it.

I watched the bacon sizzled on the pan. Tossed in the mushroom in my hands. Stir in the noodles, and added the spices, took about a gram.

It's a moment of pure lies and wonderous mirage. Just a moment.

In a couple of hours, it will all come spiralling down, crashing on a heap of bodies. The harsh reality, timeless. Cruel and cold, drawing from maimed youths their lives and their mind. In its wake, a dead zone. Still fog that clings, steely silence and ancient streams, flowing red towards and from all together.

Jan wants to meet us in the editing suite at 4pm tmr. Shall sleep after relaxing for a couple more hours. >.<

看戏。

2008-02-23T07:06:00.000-08:00

Went to the film screening at SCAPE today. The first prize winner for FABLES 2008 was well-deserved, a short film of quality and with much thought put into it. =) Well done Team from NTU!

Just a suggestion though... take out the last bit.

The film could have ended more beautifully and subtly with the character still in the car, having listened to the birthday dedication. It'll also be much stronger... I think.

“老師嫁老大” was the highlight of the night. It turned out just... O...K... for me. 大部份的笑话真的不适合我，而故事内容．．．只能说是还能更丰富些、更婉转些吧！

说来还真让我有点重望所失的感觉。戏里的有些部份呢，就套句梁导前部片子里的话．．．太‘lamb'了！還好戲里有些不错的演员，能牵动著大部份观众的心。就拿李国煌来说吧，这部片子真正明了他演戏的天分；从娘娘腔到江湖混混，从典形小男人到嚇聲吓人的冷血绑匪，他的演技都是十分不錯的。

加油吧梁導，希望下一部戲能更好！

Been preoccupied with conceptualizing for FYP... It seems that I'm currently facing the prospect of a drying well for ideas. And the documentary... *HeEsh* Thus not in the best of moods recently... Oh well... So friends, pardon my constant zoning off... YiSheng's right I guess, the holiday did come at a good time.

This is the offical list of "To-Do"s:
- Start preparing for MTV shoot (21st, 22 March)
aka.. Storyboard, Full-perfected shotslist, contact props persons, casting...

- Hmm... there's the 3 Days Scriptwriting Seminar during the break

- Need to write Modern Art Essay

- Have to rush out Documentary's Close-to-Final Edit

- Help out at Danny and Jito's shoot

JeeZzz... I need to watch movies. NEED. YEs!
This is my personal list of "To-Do"s:
- Watch "L -Changes the World"

- Catch "Rule No. 1", wOot! Kelvin Tong's serious horror is back!

- Bring Vodka to get his wings clipped

- Change Hellos, Candy and Vodka's cages

- Change water for both fish tanks...

- Keep reading Michael Crichton's books (They're really good, the guy's a genius!)

- Keep my personal spirits high

Haha... I'm smiling a lot to myself these days... Kept seeing beautiful things and cute relationships amongst people that just makes me wanna smile.. A good sign. Alright... have to stop here for the night, with a song I'd say...

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oooh.. a holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong...

- Excerpt from Daniel Powter's "Bad Day"

gooD Night!

感想．．．

2008-02-18T22:00:00.000-08:00

最進迷上了由韓國美女江娜拉和台灣人氣帥哥蘇友彭所主演的“刁蠻公主”。看得令人感到非常精彩，但也十分感慨。

政治交意、人与人的交情、錯中復雜的男女情絲、勾心斗腳的攀名奪利．．．這些和更多都以較輕松的方式呈獻在觀眾們的面前。坐觀其中時，慶幸我們都已過了那封時代，活的也比古人來得逍洒自在。說到底，這可是一部十分不錯的連戲剧，大家試看無妨！

It's too tedious to type in Chinese and I shall be rushing my work soon... so here's a few picture post when our family went to send Aunt HuiLee off at the airport's new terminal, T3. Its pretty... lots of lights and it's got a REEeeaaAaalLLLyyy high ceiling at the departure level. Here goes!

The ladies of the night... from Left: Aunt HuiLee, my Mummy, NaiNai, Aunt HuiNgern and ME!!!! (Sis was not there yet.)

Aunt HuiLee says... "Let's take a picture! Must see all the lights har!"

The family after a nice dinner at Dian Xiao Er... say "TEETH!!!"

Finally, sis came and we took a picture together after finding out that we had both bought jellybeans on the same day!

简单的幸福

2008-02-14T03:28:00.000-08:00

今天是二月十四情人桀。首先祝天下所有情人有個快樂，溫馨与甜蜜的一天！

和彩琴姐和她弟去看了場精彩的功夫灌籃；周少啊！你又有寶耍了．．．這一回可是直得讓大家視目以待的另一項才華 ﹣ 打籃球。周少在戲里的角色十分討好，傻傻的，相當可愛。看吧！就連我這普通女孩都為他耍的傻酷動了心，更和況是坐在我們旁邊，他的頭號歌迷 ﹣ 粉絲小妹，整部片子就由得她們在那頭兒大誇：“他真的很帥hor!"

故事內容雖舊了點但還不錯、內容輕松、捷奏也夠快的。唯感不足的，就是那真實感。

場面過於好大、對幾位主角的戲份過份的極中，讓人擺脫不了自己就是在‘看戲’的感覺。但話說回來，那可能就是導演朱延平所要制造的效果吧！讓觀眾們有種在觀看球賽般的快感，刺激，精彩．．．一句話，直得票价！

在學校遇到了能令我整天面帶笑容的‘聖誕老人’．．．哈哈！謝謝你，情人節快樂！

PICture POSt

2008-01-06T21:48:00.000-08:00

It's been a really, really, really fun trip! Okie, the work part was FUN fun. But seeing the remaining 7 days was spent with constant diarrhoea and occasional vomitting.... Hmmmmm... it's still fun though. =) Alright, enough talking, PICTURESSsss~!!!

"We've got boots from Hi-Tech, Columbia and other brands... so which do you think will prove the most hardy?"

Oki, ignore the shoes for now, here's to Canon Singapore for making it all possible. And the group that did it.

Luggage check at Singapore's Changi Airport...

Checking our luggage at KunMing's International Airport...

Many thanks and a gianormous clap for KunMing's Zoology Museum and their staff for giving us a special tour around the place even after opening hours. It's truly an eye-opener...

People... think "Night At the Museum". ;)

And we arrive at Di Qing Airport in ZhongDian... or the now 'Shangarila'.

This is basically the colour palette of the area for this time of the year... A tinge of yellowing beauty and brownish sadness. The temperature of the day is -10 degrees Celsius.

And we finally arrived at CERS's headquarters at ZhongDian. Located at about 3500metres above sea level, this is a breath-taking place. Both literally and metaphorically speaking. ANNyyyWaaayy... enough for now. Next post will include photos from our expedition! =)

beFORE

2007-12-09T02:20:00.000-08:00

Before embarking on the expedition trip to Shangari-la, China, I would like to do some house cleaning, mopping away the layers of dust and pulling at the cobwebs dangling all over my blog space. Danny was saying he's sick of seeing Vodka donning the first page... lol.. but who can get sick of this cutie?! Anyway, went to Mary's Birthday Bash at Fort Siloso, Sentosa a couple of days back, here are the happenings:

The whole gang who's there. Aiya... and Eugene should be in the photo too..

Shenlyn was wailing about the ugliness of my new trekking boots.. bahhh.. I insist upon its beauty.

Then that irritating girl was forcing me to take countless of pictures for her in that horribly poor lit beach area... but a couple turned out to be rather nice. This was one of it...

And this...

If Cafe del Maar was a celebrity...

...I would have understood.

Anyway, a party was supposed to be fun...All say 'yea!'. But here, ppl. are forced to do things they do not want.. You want evidence? Here goes:

Like getting Kissed.

Or Hugged.

LOL...just kidding... pretty natural if it's forced. Haha... anyway, you'd have noticed the protagonist in the pictures.. I shall now name Jess babe the Ti Goh Gui of the Month. Anyway... It's been a really fun night and here are the rest of photos:

Awesome stuff.

ANyway..... plane is on Tuesday, 11th Dec, at 11am. Really excited about the trip and the work there. Hopefully, we'll get some really amazing footages and manages to do something really different than the previous documentary attempts by others. I'm really looking forward to meeting the Tibetan Mastiffs, especially after all i've heard about them and stuff. Alrights, going to re-pack my bag (I'm attempting to use less than its 55litres avaliable), it's a feeble attempt, I know, but gonna try anyway. ^_^

Blah blah...

2007-10-05T08:51:00.000-07:00

Vodka, being a tad unhappy that he has to be left on my lab top whilst i stepped away for a little while...

When i came back...

LOL! Such a sweetheart! =)

I'm drowning in work these days, tsk tsk... Unhealthy stuff... Laid on the ADM floor of randomness with Felice today. We really should have a "Lie Down Day" just to show the school how overworked are we... >.<

Shooting my documentary interview tmr. Have to be at Kallang by 8.50am. Then shoot with ShiQi on Sunday. 他,媽,的...
Such an appropriate word for this sem.. cheers to Felice!

Ohh... and a story.

2007-10-03T11:27:00.000-07:00

This is just a story for those who have problems associating...

The man woke up to find that he is alone. Even his beloved Julian, gone.
It was not unpleasant though.
Rather, he felt lighter, happier.
He stepped out of his house, into the empty streets and entered a deserted cafe to have his breakfast.
The coffee was stale but the bread tasted fine, it was enjoyable.

After breakfast, the man went out into the streets with some bread crumbs in his hand.
He laid them on the grounds and look to the pale blue sky.
No pigeons came.
Not even the familiar fluttering of wings.
Nothing.

And that was when loneliness finally creeped into the man's heart.
Nibbling away at his mind.
Suddenly, he found tears flowing down his cheeks.
Before long, he was a sad lone figure, sobbing piteously.

When he is done crying, the man took a napkin from his pocket.
Slowly, he dabbed away the tears that were beginning to sting his eyes.
Then, walking away, he threw the napkin onto the floor,
because no one cares anyway...

Write...

2007-10-03T11:18:00.000-07:00

"Shit crops up in production."

I totally agree. Random spur of the moment thingy to revive my blog after ShiQi showed me the layers of dust that've been collecting. Added a new Flobber ChatBox... Ohh.. and invented a new word:

"FeEEee"

It means, Fucking Eee... Which is what i've used to describe ShiQi's psychadelic poofs of shrooms. They're not too bad looking actually...

16mm Film Workshop's shoot in about 6 hours time. And i'm still not in bed... >.< MehH... Shall get some sleep soon. Anyway, i have this random urge to run about and do nothing, laze around and watch movies, sleep all day and slack all night... basically to do everything that i'm not supposed to right now and perhaps wither away along the way.

It's just a thought anyway... and i have about 5 more shoots coming up.

Only...

mEHh...

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!

2007-08-30T10:19:00.000-07:00

Hey all...

There's a rather special prog. coming up at ADM from 4th September. Pass the msg arnd and do help by posting these info on your blog too!!!

DA HUANG PICTURES (Malaysian Films)
A showcase of Malaysian Independent Filmmakers
co-organised by NTU ADM and the Asian Film Archive
(Part of the Southeast Asian Digital Cinema Event)

Venue: NTU ADM, Lvl 2 Auditorium (take bus 199 from Boon Lay Interchange, alight at bus stop in front of Hall 8)
Admission: FREE! (with a minimum donation of $1)
All Proceeds go to the Filmmakers.

For more information on SEADC: http://www.asianfilmarchive.org/seadc

Dahuang Pictures @ ADM curated by: Ellen Tay and Er Kia Hui

Finally found it...

2007-08-30T10:12:00.000-07:00

There u go... a quote that sums up basically everything tht i've been feeling, still feeling... haiz.. ignore me, emo-night in school...

"I cry for both of us, my love, because you will not. To watch you leaving, is to know i've lost my place... and in my troubled dreams, to watch you leave, again and again..."

Ouch? Ya... ouch.

Happy 42nd Birthday Singapore!!!

2007-08-09T07:38:00.000-07:00

It's National Day today and it's also a Ho-hO-HoLidAy!

Went out with my family to a couple of places today:

First stop was Kranji War Memorial (or the Kranji State Cemetry). It is sad place filled with ghosts of memories and the past. Thousands were buried here and today, we took time off, honouring these men.

The Air, the Sea and the Land were all remembered in this monument.

Next stop, we head to the Turtles and Tortise Museum in Chinese Garden:

See what's making the water churn?

Still no idea?

And there you have it!! Er.. THEM! TOrToiSes!!!!!

Afterwards, we went to Kent Ridge Park, heading towards Bukit Chandu:

These are pictures along the walk to Bukit Chandu... Gave me a 'Pan's Labyrinth' feel...

Here's a view from the Canopy Walk right before we reached Bukit Chandu, pity I didn't managed to take any fotos there. It's a beautiful museum... Visit to know more k? It's peaceful and quiet, and sad on an occasion like today.

On a lighter note... Salute to the Singapore Flag flying past the Padang!

My dad and a whole bunch of ppl. at the Padang waiting for the fireworks...

Alright folks, that's all i took for today. Haha... sorry, was preoccupied with talking in the scenes rather than capturing them. Hee, today's a happy day. I really enjoy running arnd and exploring places. oKies PeePs... check these places out if you have the time, won't disappoint you!

想念．．．

2007-08-07T19:41:00.000-07:00

还能怎么做？

看著你的背影；

难过。

你所有的微笑已不是对我。

强忍著欢笑；

演饰，埋没。

Muffled Mumblings...

2007-07-19T22:27:00.000-07:00

Hey Pple. This is a shout out to all who like Tim Burton style of filming and also, all dark tales' fans. Visit Victric Thng's website to watch his latest short film, "The Mole". A stunning coordination between music and visuals:

www.victricthng.com

Yup, that's the msg he wants to be passed. WATCH!!!! - this is my own msg.

ANYWAY...... watched "Transformers" yesterday. YEs I am LAGGing. YES I AM SLOww.... haha.. still! APPLAUSE pLEAse! Transformers ROCKS! It's a rumbling tumbling load of metal and smooth hot action. It's a crazy jumble of animation and horrifyingly extreme camera movement. It's WOWALICIOUS!!!! hahaha... so those who's slower than me... or who's rather skeptical about this "reliving your childhood fantasy" thingy... GO WATCH! It's a childhood dream come true!!!!

A couple more days to ADM, FOC. To all... sEe You aLL sOOn!!!!!!!

Closer A p a r t.

2007-07-14T20:35:00.000-07:00

A couple of days ago, i watched "Closer A p a r t" by Victric Thng.

It was beautiful.

Visually stunning and disturbingly romantic. It would be what I call, a visual poem. Cheers to Victric once more (I loved "Goodbye, Firefly" and "Moonly" too)! Anyway, my favourite image has to be the one in which the actor and actress hugged each other on the bed, breast to back. It's so close that it's tantalising, yet so devoid of sentiments that it's painful. It's also so familiar that it's saddening... oh well...

A heavy film nonethless, I told Victric that I agree with some of the critics, it's a not an easy film to watch. But close your eyes and open your heart, perhaps then, you'll hear the faintest whisper of hate, murder and love weaved into a timeless story...

By the way, applause for RJC Year 1 AEP and MEP students. A brilliant job on the short films that you all did. It was indeed wonderful collaboration between the two great minds for which, I must say deserves a lot of acknowledgement.

It is not easy, I would know that, but these students have done it; with style and grace. Some improvements here and there would be good, but that's what school is for, to learn and to improve ya? =) Anyway, a word of comment, music and sound, when carefully planned and laid out, could really breathe life into the art form. Alrights, Chia would be so proud of all of you. Anyway, some randomness before I end:

SPLEEN is my new favourite word. It manages to sound so funny and gross at the same time that it's confusing.

Once upon a Valentine...

2007-06-28T23:04:00.001-07:00

There was a girl who's nv once celebrated it in her entire life. Relations come and go, end before or didn't occur at all.
Then one day, she finally celebrated it. A card was given to her, it meant more than anything. She was happy, so happy that she's crying in her heart, coz she knew everything written in the card, he meant it. Even till now, she cries when she holds the card. Coz she knows, everything he's ever written in the card, he meant it. And it is enough. The End.

Sound of Silence.

2007-06-27T10:10:00.000-07:00

I couldn't sleep again... waiting for the pain to go away.

It's not the dull, numb throbbing kind of pain. It sears and hurts...

Words mean so much to me... and words that you've said, meant more than anything. Now they replay, like a broken tape-recorder, at random times, even in the darkness of the night...

I cry alone, hug memories, and sing myself to sleep... "soon... it'll pass." I assure myself, "soon..."

Today, i discovered a song with Ying's help...

.SOUND OF SILENCE.
Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one deared
Disturb the sound of silence.

Fools said i,you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you.
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, the words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisperd in the sounds of silence.

It's a beautifully written, love this song...

More Quotes...

2007-06-23T08:17:00.000-07:00

"I was watching you out the library window and you were talking to Sarah Marsh."

"Oh, God, I was so in love with her."

"And when you walked away, she started making fun of you with Kim Canetti... you didn't know at all. You seemed so happy."

"I knew. I heard them."

"Well, how come you were so happy?"

"It was mine, that love. I owned it... I can love whoever I want."

"But she thought you were pathetic."

"That was her business, not mine. You are what you love, not what loves you."

- Conversation between Donald and Charlie Kaufman in 'Adaptation'.

"I am Joe's Complete Lack of Surprise."

-'Fight Club'

"I wish I were an ant. Oh, they're so shiny."

"You're shinier than any ant, darlin' "

"That's the sweetest thing anybody has ever said to me."

"I like you, that's why."

- Conversation between Susan Orleans and Laroche in 'Adaptation'.

"Sir, what if a writer is attempting to create a story where nothing much happens? ... More a reflection of the real world."

"The real world?"

"Yes, sir."

"The real fucking world. First of all, you write a screenplay without conflict or crisis, you'll bore your audience to tears. Secondly nothing happens in the world?... Are you out of your fucking mind? People are murdered every day. There's genocide, war, corruption. Every fucking day somewhere in the world, somebody sacrifices his life to save somebody else. Every fucking day someone somewhere makes a conscious decision to destroy someone else! People find love! People lose it! For Christ's sake, a child watches a mother beaten to death on the steps of a church! Someone goes hungry! Somebody else betrays his best friend for a woman! If you can't find that stuff in life, then you, my friend, don't know crap about life! And why the fuck are you wasting my two precious hours with your movie? I don't have any use for it! I don't have any bloody use for it!"

- Mckee lecturing Charlie Kaufman in 'Adaptation'.

Beautiful isn't it...? Nice stuff....

...

2007-06-22T21:31:00.000-07:00

Still here...

And i wonder why.

Hmmmz... but it's much better now. Hope things are going good for you too, for everything.

Oh well...

Was asking my mum yesterday about her army hauntings' experience. Wanted to write a script about it.. Tsk tsk... not easy, have to get my facts right here...

Going to help PangRen later with some shopping for FOC later... Hey.. Nicholas.. if u're still reading this blog... WelCoMe to ADM! =) Pleasant surprise, err... although i still dunno you. Haha.. yup, see you in a month's time!

Oh well... to the rest of you who has been posted to School of Art, Design and Media, a very warm welcome to all!!! Hope you'll find your stay and your life here thoroughly exciting and enriching. Okie... enough of propaganda here...shall end off with an invitation: You all just have to come to the FOC ya? =)

Seems...

2007-06-17T02:25:00.001-07:00

Seems that this year's ADM FOC is gonna be a pack load of fun! 5 days k pple!!!
Was at the FOC Bonding Session yesterday, it was fun. Much better than last year... Great work.. errr.. Red Shirt People..

Anyway, will be looking forward to a fun-filled, energy packed FOC! =) Cheerio!

Penned thoughts.

2007-06-16T11:57:00.000-07:00

Ok... This post is just my personal thought. I've got to write it down, if not, i'll nv get my sleep tonight. Heh... if i know how to lock this post, i'll do. I just don't know how to do it. Ya... computer idiot. Anything tht's not done by hand freaks me out. Haha.. almost.

The day when u kissed me on the forehead was the happiest day of my life (at least for the past 20 plus years...)

Yup... enough said, you've moved on. It's time for me to move on...

Wa Lau...

2007-06-13T23:40:00.000-07:00

Oki, i can't take Black And White Photography even if Jeff wants to offer his place to me. BLaH! Irritating... nvm... shall learn how to develop photo with Caroline and the rest, learn in the sly. Well then, shall continue to fulfill my stop-motion work. Heesh... still a bit pek-chek, got waitlist somemore! Kowz.... Alright...

By the way...

Reminder for all watching Pluck on Friday. It's meeting at 5:30pm at the Mac Entrance (inside the building, not outside okay?). The actual show itself is at 8pm. After that, have the luxurious option whether to watch a sand animation/performance at 10pm. Right outside the Esplanade, and for free. Cheers to all~

Alright...

2007-06-12T01:49:00.001-07:00

Alright... my heart sang its fill, and i'll return to sing it whenever I feel down. But i'll be okay i guess.
That's how u can ever be, Okay or Not Okay.

So... it's rather okay now for me. Ya... right.. ok, got to study.

I used to...

2007-06-12T01:18:00.001-07:00

I used to think about you all day, wondered how you are and if things are fine for you in everyway.
Now I am thinking about you all day, but dared not worry, dared not ask, for I am in no position to say.

I used to laugh and smile when I see your face, the day seemed brighter than always.
Now I can only smile and say, we've been here and done that before this day.

I used to think if you like some1 truly, then go up ahead and make his day.
Now I'm left here, alone in my stay.

La di dah~ Oh fine heart, keep your emotions at bay. It's true life here, I don't want to make him go further away.
Keep your love deep down in a chest, lock it up and throw all away.
Key to the chest, chest with the key... you've returned it to me.
Scared of what I can give?
Or scared to lose more than you seek.

Am i the only one here, that spent the nights alone in tears? Trying to recall how you smell, how you feel, but cruel dreams, they don't strike deals.

I used to pray that you're happy always.
Now I'm still praying for that, and that you'd be safe.

I used to say that I'll wait, until you're ready, until you're ok.
Now I'm still waiting for that day...Perhaps.
But friends told me, GO! Look around and play!
And you told me... okay....

La di dah~ Oh fine heart, keep your emotions at bay. It's true life here, I don't want to make him go further away.
Keep your love deep down in a chest, lock it up and throw all away.
Key to the chest, chest with the key... you've returned it to me.
Scared of what I can give?
Or scared to lose more than you seek.

La la la dah~

(Pick your own tune and sing along. A heart's song)

yup.

2007-06-10T08:07:00.000-07:00

"I've decided to let her go."
"What? But Shrek! I thought you love Fiona??!!"
"Yup, that's why I have to let her go."

- Conversation between Shrek and Donkey in "Shrek 2"

i've realised that the MRT line from Kranji back to Jurong East is really long. I stood at the junction between 2 cabins and thought about things. Nah... scratch that. I allowed thoughts to wash over me.

Then i had a conclusion, he's wrong. I didn't put in more for the relationship between me and you. It's just that everytime, the person does something nice and sweet for me, i'd want to put in more. It's natural... Haaz...ok.. randomness.

I went to do my hair today, can't cut it any shorter... so did rebonding. Got scolded by mum, got silent understanding from dad. Thanks...

i went to sit and air myself a bit someplace that i found. It's nice, it's airy, and just me, the sky and loads of birds, until after 8. Then it's just me and the sky. It's a good place. I just don't want myself to be crying in front of anyone else anymore... Ppl. have lives, they are busy enough with theirs.

I just have to learn to let go don't I?

Yup, or an alternative is to think more like an Ogre (kidding).

Can't stop.

2007-06-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

Crying crying crying... i keep telling myself this is enough. Stand up and go.

I just can't do it...

I can put on a smile. Immerse myself with work, do this, take that, finish those...

How can i truly smile and laugh again? When the person who gave me a reason to do tht for months told me that he sees me just as a good fren? How can i love again when the person whom i tot of everyday, every minute, even now... Nv calls, nv asks... How are u today? How can i be happy and love again, when the person who told me he loved me plans to break up with me, weeks ahead?

I'm not the only one sad you say? I'm not sad, Hurt. Dead. Self-blaming... more like that.

Stop this?

Tell me how...?

The point is...

2007-06-03T08:19:00.000-07:00

oki... i feel sad. No.. more than sad, teary, heartbroken, REALLY sad. So stop asking if i'm sad.. i am.

I am.

And i'm even more saddened by the fact that u asked me tht. I really am.

Alright... no more le.. have to move from here.. Face the music.

Problem is.. it's a void now.. no more music, no laughter. It's the kind of funny silence tht make ur ears hurt. The kind of silence that eats into u. Leaving u a deaf and mute. Taking away ur soul.

But it'll pass. I'm talking crap now.. see? haha.. so funny. Anyway.. i've got to learn. Yup start with 2-1=1. It's a useful equation and very very applicable. Trust me.

Holding on.

2007-06-01T08:13:00.003-07:00

I'm holding on. I'm going to stop crying now. And learn to, simply hold on.

Coz my senses tell me to. And if they're wrong... i'll just cry.

YC's right. And I'm going to enjoy, every bit of the minute tht I'm holding onto your hand and in your arms. And stop being an emo freak, that was freaked out.

Blogging

2007-05-28T08:27:00.000-07:00

I wanted to blog about something nice, something happy. I told myself to 2 days ago. But now, i've come to realize that i couldn't. Not anymore. I forgot how to smile. I forgot how to laugh.. Maybe i'll remain like that, for more than a while.

I tot I could make u stay... make you realise that i will walk with u to the end if u want. But apparently, u knew it all along, u're just "thinking that" perhaps u don't want.

Nvm... I've met u. And thou art enough. I've been with u... and time's been worthwhile. No matter what's ur decision. I'll just sit and wait.. once more... let u to ur own. How familiar...

I want to try harder this time round.. to leave u be... until u find the day, the need to be back with me. If not... ni xi huan jiu hao.

I dun wan u to feel forced. Leaving is easier... better than u having to stay. But I only ask u to consider:

Just how much do i weigh in ur heart. If it's too little... i'll go... if it's worth the try... i'll be sitting here... hands outstretched. waiting for yours to be in mine...

BLog. bLOg. bloG.

2007-05-23T07:17:00.001-07:00

Alright, Michael's asked me to pen this thought of mine down.. so here it is:

-"Fantasic Four" is really just another term for the much true-to-the-course actual name: "Psychosexual Four"

Don't agree?

INVISIBLE WOMAN.
Hell, woman! How can you possibly live with this name??? It's the dream of all men: A hot woman who can appear when you need her *wink wink* and disappear completely (clothes and all yea) when you feel like you've had enough... Damn... I tot Alba was smart. >.<

MR FANTASIC.
Elasticity Man, extend ANY of your body part at free will. Unlimited length offer! Haha.. hell...

HUMAN TORCH.
Hot bod. Hot eyes. Hot voice. Hot everything... this guy's been chosen by Mr J to FLAME UP!

THE THING.
Rock Hard... need more?

Oh well... now you know why you get the kick out of watching the movie... ^-^

Okie.. tht was the random part... Now for some serious ramblings:
Today and the past few days was ok... You fell sick, i think i'm falling sick. Many others had been sick. This is the time to drink lots of water and stay outta the hellish afternoon sun. Mind your body people!

Anyway... i have been, and is still hoping tht one day, we'd just go out somewhere, not the movies... and sit down and just talk.. chat, while away the precious, minutes and hours. I'd be really happy if tht happens... or if you even read this... haiz... Oh well... I'm just insanely jealous of couples who do more than only going to the movies when they go out... SCIENCE CENTRE!!!! >.<

Haiz.. today wasn't so happy for me... went to watch Pirates... Saw Johnny Depp, should have made my day. But well.. I would actually prefer if I didn't have to find out tht you were helping him by myself. I did tell you before tht i wouldn't mind you working with him... but just let me know. At least i'll feel more involved in your life, more like your gf...

Alright... I'm done with niaming.. you're prolly not going to see this anyway.. so to the rest of the people tht do see this... and are always sweet enough to come ask me how I am... I am telling you all, tht i'm fine... Really, happy even. But not tht happy happy. Savy?

Me neither actually...

Some thoughts...

2007-05-15T01:32:00.001-07:00

Before i start, this thought is beside the rest coz it's dedicated to somebody:

"It's the way you are, that i fell, and is still falling in love with."

Haha.. okie, coming up with these are fun. I personally feel this way, you don't necessarily have to agree. But have fun reading!

I will have to be clearer in the directions that I will be taking in the future, coz the first steps have to start NOW!

Ambitions varies, what matters is that you have one. No matter how small. And to have another after you've reached that goal. And another, and another...

We are not the best... but we do try our hardest.

All human beings are paranoid creatures, as of the beasts that walk on fours or slithers on no legs at all.

Give me a dime, I ask for a dozen. Give me nothing at all, I promise to be contented with a penny, well-wishes and all.

Everyone needs some space to breathe. Too much space and it becomes a void. Too much void and loneliness creeps in. Then you'll hear yourself cry out: "Why?? Is there no one for me?"

I am a creature like all others that smile politely through painted lips and nod our dainty heads cautiously to any topic that I disagree with. - Woman

I am a creature like all others that nod our empty heads and smile politely through rough lips when seeking to understand the incomprehensible syllabus that you have just pronounced. Otherwise, should i know better, I'd just stick to the newspaper. - Man

Excuses are leeways given by people for their own sake, does it sound any better than "Opps I did it again?" Perhaps, if Britney's not the singer.

Misfortunes are but a part of life that are magnified. Blessings meanwhile stand aside, waiting patiently to be counted.

Blogs are places for random rantings, outrageous claims and senseless let-outs... Besides these, perhaps also for one to pen a thought or two when no one else seems to bother.

in school...

2007-04-01T10:51:00.000-07:00

"Someone who truly loves u won't make u cry"... these words have been haunting me...

I like listening to ppl.'s love experiences... like fairytales, they are beautiful, sweet and amazing. The main gist of all of the stories is that when u are in love, the little things you do and say becomes significant gestures; they are important to someone who treasures them.

22nd Feb 2007. I found you...

I've nv cried in front of u becoz u truly don't make me cry. But without you... things are different.

You told, or rather warned me before that you dun like being romantic. I kept quiet then. Being romantic is not about giving flowers and having candlelight dinner, neither is it, in my opinion, walking along the beach with the setting sun in the backgrd. Becoz all these are mere actions without a motive. It is the notion of WHAT MADE YOU DO ALL THAT FOR HIM/HER? that makes the gesture romantic. You get to be romantic if you do something (no matter how little) for the person that you love and care.

Remember the conversations we had? About me being unable to withstand ppl. breaking promises? Then one about giving flowers? - You said you're the type who will ask directly from the person if you want something.

I asked you yesterday about accompanying me for a breather. I really needed it. So it's my fault that I didn't make it clear. Sorry. That I've said 'if' and 'early'. Perhaps I should have told these to you: I was about to breakdown.... I need you to be there... I need a shoulder to cry on... I feel terrible.. Stressed out. Worn out. Tired. Fragile. Alone. But i didn't... I just asked if you'd accompany me somewhere, 'If' and 'Early'. And you said yes.

Yesterday you left first... Whilst my group waited by the filming location for the truck that almost nv came. TeckSiang's and Jit's group helped us unpack... and we all helped the sch sort out the equipments: FEGs/ADM/FEGs/ADM... missing extension cables, missing wedges... count the kinoflo banks... Then I went to ShiQi's hall to bathe... I didn't wanna go home (need breathing space)... Deciding to watch a movie when i get back to ADM (But i didn't coz none of the stupid MAC in sch plays DVD unless specific regional code was set). All the while checking my phone. I didn't reply u on the msg becoz i didn't know how to. I didn't wanna say.. 'ok.', then summarize my shoot in a simple sms. I didn't know which is worse... the summarizing or the pretence that i'm ok.

Chatted with ShiQi. I didn't wanna go on MSN... not today.

1.30am, I took a slow walk back to ADM alone, the air smelt like grass and wet mud. You've said we'd talk tonight... I didn't go on msn... I tot u'd care. ShiQi said you wouldn't notice... i told her you would... maybe.. Well... not a call... I dun like talking on phone doesn't mean that I dun like u calling me. Not an sms... not even a good night from you...

It's bad to cry in ADM... the alrdy dry air will dry up your eyes... but tears wouldn't listen.. I couldn't control... So here I am... still in school, crying to the big blue computer screen... And all these will be stashed in the blog... you'd not notice... you'll not hear me say.... You don't want to read my blog. It's ok. I'm ok, Then again, am i?

BABEL.

2007-02-09T19:23:00.000-08:00

What do you get when you cross an Art House Production with a Hollywood Babe?

An atrocious mix of good film and bad distraction.

Or perhaps you'll just get "Babel".

IT IS A GOOD FILM. Don't get me wrong on that. One in which allows audience to touch, see and feel for the humanity and emotions portrayed. Certain scenes were beautifully executed, others were okay, some were bad, a few made me wanna shout "CUT!"

"Babel" is a weird, seemingly random mixture of stories, but all centering around a prominent theme of discrimination, be it of ethnic groups, races, or people with disabilities and even between friends and family members. This show has got a good amount of heart wrenching moments and soul tingling situations that makes the audience seriously reflect about their own feelings as stories and events unfold.

A much better and more rewarding movie than "Crash" (which was about similar theme), "Babel" still needs to be more concised and narrative to make it even better and more appealing for the mass audience. It is afterall a movie with an undiscriminating theme (pardon the pun); but with its jumpy and near non-friendly story flow, "Babel" is an Art House film. And as if the he suddenly decides to salvage the box office turnout? Director Alejandro Gonzales Inarritu puts Brad Pitt in it. Haa... Here comes the horrendous relevation of a probable Hollywood ending in which everyone lives, ppl. are happy, they wave and the story ends kind of thing. And sure enough, it did.

Gross.

This film does not need that salvaging. It's a gOOd movie. A touching and convincing commentary that well stands on its own without all the fuss and extravaganza. But ohh well, at least it gave Brad Pitt fans something to look forward to...

ApOcALyptO.

2007-02-09T19:07:00.000-08:00

Mel Gibson's own genre is becoming surprisingly palpable in his latest film "APOCALYPTO".

Once again, the movie looks at the audience in the eyes and shouts to our hearts, "Don't Fuck with My Family or I'll F*****G Kill YOU!!!" Haha, it's not a bad thing to portray, very inspirational. The nature of this film behaves like a billion dollar documentary, not unlike some really polished ones by BBC - Blue Planet, or National Geographic. It's eye-opening, fresh, beautiful and informative, minus the narration by Attenbourgh. It's still cool though.

2 Hours 18 Minutes of run time (quite literally) and you will feel from joy, panick, fear, sadness, anger, detest to more fear, bravery and finally triumph. But not a single moment of boredom, promise. Mel Gibson, together with his cast and crew have brought to you a very engaging movie that puts you at the edge of your seat constantly. It runs like a documentary, but tingles like a psycho-thriller. It's a worthwhile movie experience, forget about the small tv sets! Forget about getting some cheapo pirated DVD and watching it cracking and blurring in the small hole of your home! Go instead for the BiG ThiNG because it's worth it. BRILLIANT!

*A note to all: Like any other Mel Gibson's movie, "Apocalypto" is a tad on the bloody and gorish side, watch with caution; beautiful Art Direction though.*

生日．．．？快了。

2007-02-04T05:47:00.000-08:00

Went to watch Happy Birthday, played by Rene Liu (小米) and Louis Khoo (小南).

Lovely and tragic, beautiful yet plain... it's a romantic depiction of two people, seemingly separated only by the lack of a definite status for each other, slowly realizing that this "lack" tumbles and signifies and finally causes them to lose many things important to themselves, including each other.

It is a sad movie, and very true to life, in its portrayal of the "there/not there" kind of relationship. Although I would agree that the chemistry between the actors is really convincing and touching, I dare safely say that Rene Liu practically stole the show with her "to the point" portrayal of a girl with low confidence, convinced that she is plain average despite her unique gift with the piano keys and the ability to truly capture our male lead's heart. Still, it takes 2 hands to clap and Louis Khoo nearly matches her performance with his dazzling on-screen charm.

Other minor roles in this film is skillfully chosen and the storyline is well-adapted (from a short story, “我要跟你走”, written by none other than the female lead, Rene Liu herself). With its well planned and executed cinematography, this beautiful film is a worthy opponent to be put up against the renowed Korean Romantic Epics. Do catch it if you can, and you'll be surprised how much this film makes you ponder about your current life and decisions.

Funny, this year's gonna be a year crammed up with 21st birthday celebrations and i'm seriously not looking forward to them... feeling very tired liao.. Haiz... anyway... More and more stuff piling up liao... >.< Shoots... gonna need to work faster le... Wish me luck!

Today...

2007-01-02T07:32:00.000-08:00

Today I sat around in the house meaning to get down to business. But I can never quite set my mind to it. Tomorrow I'm going off to Kukup, a small and sleepy fishing village with real fishing business going on... Well.. am excited but... look.. there's always the 'but'...

Haha... Been waiting for a single sms from you today... a simple "Take care for the trip okay?" or even "Enjoy tomorrow!" would suffice. It would make my day... but nope.. nuthing. Maybe you've even forgotten about the trip which doesn't interest you in any way. Likely so...

Ohh well... it's just two days.. nothing big. But I'm gonna miss you.

Okay.. packing off last of my stuff.. Shall be bringing an enormously big but half-filled bag, no cameras, just a sketchbook and a book titled "Anansi Boys". Cheerio~!

Some Movies.

2007-01-01T23:16:00.000-08:00

I've watched a number of films recently and here's my conclusive review for them:

"OPEN SEASON"
Crappy. Nonsensical. Ugly.
Was the first few impression-words I have for the animated feature before I went into the theatre, based on the poster and trailer.

Ugly.
was what remained of my impression for the film after watching the film and the other two words have been graciously subsituted by Funny & well... Funny...

Not much of a plot in there, an repetitive, constantly reoccuring story nowadays; a loser, a fellow who's just lost his bright and comfortable future came together and forged a most unlikely friendship and together, they show the world (or at least their world) that they're not THE LOSER TEAM afterall by saving the world (or at least their world) from the horrible, bastardly (not forgetting UGLY) and dumb evil-planner. Ohh well, the animation is in what most animators will say, a display of basic animation skills, of good squash & stretch, amazing movement portrayal... But U-G-L-Y. Okay.. at least they got lovable, dispensible bunnies and skunks with attitude. But on the whole, "Open Season" should remain closed after it is down from the chart.

"CURSE OF THE GOLDEN FLOWER, 满城尽待黄金甲”
Jay Chou caught my attention in here... too much of our attention I would say... But it might be good in some ways for let's see... the feature is a grand and amazing display of what Zhang Yi-Mou is really good at, Colours Display. Awesome Gold and passionate Reds threw into a dazzling array of Greens and Blues... the whole tone of the show is O.O B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L. Visually stunning, however, this film has little more to offer besides the grand cast and setting and Chow Yan-Fat's show-saving performance... the film is one without much depth and a sad-case for storyline.

One would expect more out of a grand, million-budget film... but no... it is a just a film with story revolving around 5 mad members of the royal family. Each of the events that occurs came with loopholes and questionable happenings. I believed that a good writer's been sacrificed for Zhang's grand plan for prettiness.

"HAPPY FEET"
Fun. Funky. Beautiful.
All in all, an extremely good animation that turned out much better than what the trailer had promised. I was pleasantly surprised by its storyline, nice and heartwarming, at the same time, funkaliciously cool. The music is amazing and taps into the hearts of the audiences as good music should. The animation is beautiful and convincing (though perhaps not for traditional animators where exaggerated movements gave way to realistically rendered and articulated ones) a good treat to the eyes... The setting is... mind you... A-W-E-S-O-M-E. If you're a skeptic thinking "puhh-leasee... how can snow and water and ice-bergs and penguins be in any way... exciting?" Then I'll recommend you this movie to put yourself out of your miserably narrow mind. Go ahead, sing your heart song out. =)

"SKETCHES OF FRANK GEHRY"
Interesting and insightful look into the works of world-renowed architect Frank Gehry (Architect for the famously, or should i say infamously 'warped and twisted' Guggenheim Museum in Bilbao, Spain). Although the hand-held and often seemingly unplanned shots were not for the faint or easily tired people... The film offers a rather good and intimate exchange with the architect himself, sort of like a biography with moving pictures, one cannot help but be awed by his amazing works and humourous self. But do no expect overly in-depth accounts like a anatomy textbook in his works, for it is a film of light-heartedness and often barely glazed over the surfaces of certain works which some audience or critics might find disappointing. If you do not know Frank Gehry at all or love/hate him beyond all reasoning... then this show is for you.

"THE ANT BULLY"
Haha... sorry, was lagging when it comes to watching this animation. First off, Plot and story: hmmm.. alrighty, nothing really beats the 1994, 2D animation blockbuster Lion King after all... Lots of subtle adaptation from the mega sequel Lord Of The Rings.. But it doesn't help much in the plot. Fun to watch though.

But the true show-off in this particular animation (like what any other respectable animations should also have) is in its rendering. For it is awesome stuff. Really, one can take a single segment of water tumbling down the wretched ants' hill and win Oscars with it, beautiful, convincing and mind-boggling. Character design wise is icky, not much development in there, but certain subtle movements and actions have been put in there to make the ants look endearing and the boy, not so unpleasant... and in fact, it is a cool animation to watch with twists and turns in emotional tunnels and word-play... The Ant Bully attempts, and not failing to teach and show certain learnable qualities and virtues.

"NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM"
What is a show with lots of laughter, a dash of tears and a heap of cool CG effects all dumped in, stirred and double boiled, served pipping hot with a glass of cool ice wine by its side?

A show starring Ben Stiller, Owen Wilson, Robbin Williams and lots more good-time comedians (I wonder where did Will Ferrel and Adam Sandler went?), a show which promises laughter and gave much more. It is a four-star comedy, the fifth was sacrificed for its rather draggy beginning. But ohh well... everything else goes...

It is a movie with expertly insinuated effects that alternate between "HAA!!! I bet you didn't notice that!" and "Look at me! I'm so fake!" with a good deal of reasoning behind each provocative. Haha... Yup, like the T-Rex Bone thing.. and the fake animals and the life animals... this movie gave us so much to laugh and look at that loopholes were either ignored or forgiven, the basic plot accepted. It is one good family movie tht is touching but not to the limit of being soppy and sappy... funny without being lame... serious without being boring. Go watch it with a love one and it will bring smiles to both of your faces today.

"DEATH NOTE 2 - THE LAST NAME"
Pardon me Death Note fans, but I do believe that the comic itself has more of an exciting end even if it's 12/13 books long and a lot more 2D than the show. Yup... this movie is in my opinion, too much talk, too little action. It's a live-action movie for god's sake! Where did the action life and action go??? And L eats weird stuff. Okay... tht's random but it spoiled my mood. >.<

The arguement is that this film has got a much less expected ending and also we have been saved the trouble of being introduced to a lot off not-so-much-anticipated ppl. *points to the letter between M and O*. Still the movie plays too much like a manga, the camera shots were much too predictable and exaggeration is sometimes too much for the eye. Also the ending drags and drag it did till it's beyond a certain level of comprehension, till "putt off" came to my mind.

BUT I must say that it is a rather commendable compressed version of the story for some of the none-DeathNote readers and others who just like the Manga portrayal. But still my heart is with the first movie, and for those of you who agree with me... We shall sit in silence, for this show put a full-stop to the supposedly 3 part sequel we were expecting, underlined the period, cancelled it and re-dot it in bold red-ink.

"BATTLE OF WITS, 墨攻"
A smart and witty film. It's been a really great experience for me to watch this film with my friends. We caught the movie after a tiring and trying 3 day rush for a certain competition and even then, all of us were captivated by the brains of the story, the dialogue were applaudable, not casual and mindlessly strewn in like many Chinese features these days. The acting was really good and like always, Andy Lau held the audience's gaze and mind alike. He as the charismatic Ge Li, who came from the Muk clan with a promise to aid any who's being victimized, the story flows like water through a creek, it is clear where it is headed, yet the way to the end is filled with unexpected obstacles and happenings. A truely good film with the enstrangled hero of today, being torn between the Right of past teachings and the Right in the society and the Right in the particular situation.

The horrible CG effects were pardoned by the well-woven storyline and all else does not matter. It is a film respectable in its own rights like the teachings that it attempts to show. A film worth watching many times over.

"LAN YU, 藍宇"
It is not a show encouraged by the government in this part of the country or the country where the main cast came from, it is not in fact, encouraged by the world, the society. Still it managed to grab the Golden Horse Awards in 2001 for Best Actor (Liu Ye), Best Director (Stanley Kwan), Best Editing (William Chang) and Best Adapted Screenplay (Jimmy Ngai) and bagged many others like chocolate puddings into the bags of little boys. The show is about the love story between a man (CHAN HANDONG), rich and influential, and a fresh-faced Uni student (LAN YU) who was prostituting himself for school fees. The love blossomed between the two of them and when Handong finally realised that Lan Yu is the one true love in his life and begins to settle himself to love and live with Lan Yu, the latter dies in an unfortunate accident at work.

The story has a familiar ringing to other films about romance and enstrangled love. And I personally think that the ending Suck. "Why do all gay films end with one of them (sometimes, horrifically both of them) dying??? Why can't there be a happily everafter??" My friend's haunting question ringing in my head. Ohh wells... Still... it is a really good film with strongly captured camera angles, emotions and tones were beautifully set in those well-planned shots and the chemistry between the two main actors was amazing, thus making the love between them totally convincing and truely sad when it should end.

When I compared Brokeback Mountain to this, Ang Lee couldn't even come close. Really... he had spoilt a perfectly good chance at directing a much more lyrical and strong film but gratefully Stanley Kwan didn't. Applause for this film for those who can appreciate it... and for those who are put off by the theme of homosexuality, watch it with an open mind, watch it as a film between two persons very much in love and you perhaps will surprise yourself.

Wow... okay.. tht's a lot of movies... good ones bad ones.. I say.. u decide. Till then~!

A promise.

2007-01-01T21:55:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I watched a show about honouring your promise, be it to a family, a friend and even to a stranger.
It is a show that radiates warmth and love, a show about promises fulfilled, family ties and friendship between unlikely worlds.

The show's called "Charlotte's Web".
Adapted from the paperback book titled "Charlotte's Web" by American author E.B. (Elwyn Brooks) White written in 1952, and illustrated by Garth Williams. It is the second version to be translated onto the big screen (the first being a 1973 musical-animation directed by Charles A. Nichols & Iwao Takamoto, produced by Hanna-Barbera Productions and Sagittarius Production). The current 2006 version is a live-action/computer-animated full feature based on the original novel itself. Directed by Gary Winick, the film consist of a strong cast such as Dakota Fanning as Fern, Dominic Scott Kay as Wilbur, Julia Roberts as Charlotte, Oprah Winfrey as Gussy the Goose and Steve Buscemi as Templeton the Rat; Music is cleverly and magically woven by Danny Elfman.

The movie is on the whole applaudable. Beautiful and heart-warming, esp. the last 30min and like the original book, skillfully captivating the audience in all manners of our emotions, from funny to serious to sad to happy to loving to exasperation. Amazing work! However, the beginning of the movie can be a little loud, well, tht's farm animals for you... All in all, it is a good family movie with a tale to tell and a lesson to learn from... so well... head down to the cinemas if you haven't for "Help is coming from above." -- Movie Slogan.

Quotable Quotes:
"We were born, we live... and when the time comes, we will die... Goodbye Wilbur." - Charlotte to Wilbur

"The Rat is swift, The Rat is nimble... The Rat should stop calling itself The Rat." - Templeton to himself

"I've made a promise, and a promise is something that I'll never break." - Charlotte to Wilbur

"Rats RULE!!!" - Templeton to the Crows

"Salutations." - Charlotte to Wilbur

"How about 'Pig Supreme'?" "No good, sounds too much like a rich dessert." - Samuel the Sheep suggesting to Charlotte

"It is not often that someone comes along who is a true friend and a good writer. And Charlotte was both." - Narrator

"What's your name?... That's a G-R-E-A-T name!" - Wilbur to all barn animals who introduced themselves

This a really good quote from the animated "Charlotte's Web" in 1973... Pity it isn't in the 2006 version though... :
Wilbur to Charlotte's Daughters - "Are you writers?"
Charlotte's Daughters - "No, but we will be when we grow up."
Wilbur - "Then write this in your webs, when you learn: Thjs hallowed doorway was once the home of Charlotte. She was brilliant, beautiful, and loyal to the end. Her memory will be treasured forever. "
Charlotte's Daughters - "Ooh, that will take us a lifetime."
Wilbur - "A lifetime. That's what we have."

Ohh well, I made a promise that I'll wait... wait as long as this heart continues to flutter and sing and leap whenever you're around, wait as long as my promise is abound. And for that promise i'll keep and hold dear... till the heart sings its last, till the hope withers and die and fade... till then... I believe.

The heart can only take so much.

2006-12-31T06:00:00.000-08:00

Today is the day i finally sat down and cried. Okay... I did not sit down, I was walking as the tears flowed. Finally, after so long... it felt kind of good.

I admit that I've thought too much of myself, thinking that perhaps, I am important to you. At least in some parts of your heart. For i've told you, where is a girl who'll not dream and hope for someone to sweep her off her feet with romantic gestures and promises to last a lifetime? I'm not even asking for that, I'm just asking for a bit of you. But so many times, I've been denied. Too many times...

I will not give up, as long as this heart beats and flutters and sings when you're around, your smile. But I can die away, together with the hope and the tears, just a happy front.

I've asked despite myself; many times, in hope of a day well spent with you. A day when we need not be meeting up just for a movie that we in the end wouldn't watch, a day when I can just walk alongside you to strange and unfamiliar places, not worrying about the time when you would be rushing off to meet this person and that, all previously not known to me till the very last minute, a day when i'm not left to do up my own plan after putting aside all others just because you said "Ok". It hurts too much... and there is only so much chilli in a bottle to numb.

Haha... someone says to give you some time... I too ask for time from you, just a little. Maybe it is too much. Someone says to give you space, so space is what I'll give for now.

I'm sorry... perhaps it's been as torturous and you as unwilling to be out with me as with the person you're telling. I wouldn't know, cause you do seem to be putting off. I told you once, twice, many times... I don't mind you for who you are, I like you as you... But you seem to be the one who's hiding me... Hiding me away from many sides of things... Hiding me away even from our own friends. I dun wanna believe it... so tell me it's not true?

I'm sorry too that I gave you the impression that i'm always angry. I am never angry... just sad, disappointed and sometimes, I'm not feeling any of those at all. I'm sorry to be a source of stress for you for that matter.

I don't want to look at you in the eyes, your heart and soul, because when i do look, I feel myself falling deeper and then there's this voice that says... Love him less, it will hurt lesser that way if he should tell you to go and leave him alone someday, so i looked away.

Ohh well... enough of blabbering... you'll never read it... and i too perhpas will nv mention it.

Song...

2006-12-12T10:53:00.000-08:00

I'm BacK~!!! Okay... first off, a song that I find awfully meaningful. And also coz I'm way too tired to think of anything else to blog on this super memorable day of returning back to me home... >.< Been learning it on the extremely long bus rides with a hypnotic tour guide ranting away. Haha.. he's ok though.. Juz... HYpNotiC ----> Capable of putting u into a deep unconscious trance 10min into talking. LOL~

勇气

終于做了這個決定，
別人什麼說我不理；
只要你也一樣的肯定。

我愿意天涯海腳都隨你去。
我知一切不容意。
我的心一直溫習說服自己，
最怕你突然說要放气．．．

Chorus
愛真的須要勇气,來面對流言非語;
只要你一個眼神肯定，
我的愛就有意義。

我們都需要勇气,去相信會在一起；
人潮擁齊我能感覺你，放在我手心里﹣
你的真心。
(Repeat from verse 1)

或許我的堅強任性，
會不小心傷害了你。
你能不能溫柔提醒，
我雖然心太極，更害怕錯過你．．．
(Chorus)

Yup... tht's about it.. ChoWz~

O.O

2006-12-03T06:21:00.000-08:00

Okay... i need directions.. a compass, a map, a golden thread... I'm need to go find myself.. lost Me somedays back.. Now it's time to find myself back.

I've decided to give.. and this time..almost surely not receive. Stupid? ya.. but i'll need all of myself to do that. Utterly brainless? yupz.. but it's all i wanna do. Haha.. Humans are such self-contradictory creatures.

Oki.. 哭也哭過了。就讓眼淚它不停流，到眼睛倦了，到精神疺了，我還會是站在這里的。

Packed.

2006-12-03T01:43:00.000-08:00

okay.. i've finally gotten round to pack my stuff.. clothes, toiletries, MP3, sketchbook.. Yup.. tht's about it. 7 days... Haax.. should be over pretty quickly... it's alrdy 4 days since..

Ohh well... Jitto says if anything happens then take it in ur stride. If nothing happens, juz go on as usual. Haha... I think i'll join him in the mountains if tht happens.. But prob is..How? I'm not even sure if i can let go...

I feel like an empty shell these days.. Reminds me of Teck Siang's work, "Empathy"... O.o Speaking of Deja Vu... I wanna watch the show, but not alone.. OHh Crap. Ok.. whatever... Ellen is transcending from Happy -> Hopeful -> Depressed -> Permanently Pessimistic. =P Shut up girl..

Told Jitto that no matter what i do here... Like the whiny girl i am now.. I know tht i can't do much except to wait and see. And whatever you choose..at least u will be happy.. Yup.. tht's what matters in the end i guess. Haha.. Do i sound pessimistic or wad? Lousy girl... juz 4 days. Okok... Going to swallow another book of DeathNote. Thank god there's 12 of them in total.. if not i'd juz shrivel up into a ball of nothingness these days...

DeathNote is cool. But long.. and naggy. Okay.. tht's random. Well.. on another note.. I'm still breathing.. barely though. Haaz... Cheerio~

Tried.

2006-12-02T07:59:00.000-08:00

Okay... I went and be OuTsiDe.... But the feeling -- "jitterism" I termed it, did not subside. The floors looked more and more interesting, the crickets deafening, the wind chilling and sunlight blinding... Haaz... Emo-freak. Shut Up Ellen.

"Being hung up in the air is not a good feeling."
I so totally agree with tht. Concur with it. Assure you tht it truly is...

HAiz.....Okay.. what happened today.. 3rd day...
1. Went out to eat Breakfast with family
2. Went to get some more supplies for travel
3. Went to Botanical Gardens alone... with 2 Death Note books - Finished one, more than halfway done with the other...
4. Went VivoCity, met up with Jia Hui
5. Went round Vivocity trying to find the Cineplex with Xiang Gong.. Haha.. realizing tht we've walked past it more than once
6. Went to buy a Nachos Combo and 2 Cheesy Hotdogs then stood around the Cineplex eating it
7. Went on to make a 5 bucks donation each to a children's organization
8. Went to watch "The Road in The Air" - a film by a Taiwanese first-time Director in Cinema Europa... Ermmm... not very posh we've concluded.. but comfortable seats.. The show's got a crappy and forgettable story, and a 'best actor' whom we can't seem to place our finger on, inappropriate use of equipments BUT... lighting's beautiful, camera work is cool too... redeemable on the whole..
9. Went to survey the food places in VivoCity... Restaurant-hopped till we ended up at Dian Xiao Er where Jia Hui's nv been to... So tht's where we had our dinner.. Superb~! Had half a dose of 女兒紅 and 狀元紅 each... Haha.. Jia Hui's like O.o after a taste of it.. The JollyShandy alcoholic. =P
10. Went to BEN & JERRY's, met Gary there... hmmm... and a couple of really friendly strangers.. =) Okie.. had American Pie ice-cream whilst Jia Hui fared badly with her usual (Dublin Mudslide), complaining tht there's too much alcohol. haha...
11.Went to take 166 home.. FINALLY... watched Li Jia Wei play against Kim J. in the Asean Games...

Talking with Jia Hui managed to take a load off my chest.. still the fear and distraction remains though... Pain and Hopelessness... Haha... Okay.. Ellen is positively going mad... =P Shall shut up here.. Adieu~

Breathe...

2006-12-01T22:01:00.001-08:00

Day 3... OMG.. Ellen u're scaring urself... blogging earlier and earlier... >.<

Maybe coz i can't think straight and needed this to sort out my thoughts... Maybe coz i'm really really scared and needed this to assure myself, tht somehow.. I can still speak my mind and perhaps someone will hear me out.

Okay... Let's see.. Going to watch a short film screening with Jia Hui later at VivoCity.. Vivo.. Haiz... will u still want me to go there with u? ... i can only hope.

Before that, i'm heading to Botanical Gardens to take a breather.. throw some bread crumbs to the swans, fish and tortises, maybe eat some of it myself... =T Yup, tht's what i'm going to do.

A few points about my POV:
-I'm not afraid of getting hurt whilst trying.. at least we tried
-I'm gonna be delirious if things go "POOF" and disappeared even without a beginning
-I believe in 喜歡就好... at least u get to be with the person u love
-I don't noe why i'm typing this and who it's meant for anymore...Haha.. feel like a 瞎子... feeling my way thru the darkness.

Feeling is the word..

ARgH... Enough of this... I need to go.. and be outside... >_< Take care.. might blog again soon... haha.. like real soon. =P

Day 2

2006-12-01T05:41:00.000-08:00

It's only the 2nd day...

You thought I'd be angry, he thinks that I'm worried.
Well... I'm not that worried... Definitely not even a wee bit angry...

I'm scared.
Scared of losing something special just like that.
Scared of losing you.

Ellen is a scaredy cat~ Ellen is a SCaReDy Cat~ =P
Ya... I am. At least this time... I truely am.

Ohh well... Fine December weather today... like any other day, it rained. It cleared my chest a bit... but i still can't breathe... >.< mEEp.

Okay... I'd said I'll leave you to your thoughts and so I shall. Will stand by wad i said... even though it hurts. A few more days perhaps..? I think I still can manage...

Right, Ellen... relax girl... try and breathe...

Hmm...

2006-11-30T03:37:00.000-08:00

Wanted to go Botanical Gardens, but woke up too late in a condition not meant for public display of self. So i took a while to compose myself and then it's off to the salon I go..

Went to do something about my hair - rebond and cut. =) Seems oki-looking to me, but it took a long while (3 1/2hrs) and also 120 bucks. =P Well... makes one feel better so...

Then it's back to school to back up stuff and school is where i'm typing all these from. Coz it's raining pretty heavily outside.. Hmm... I think I'll head down to Garden of Rememberance tmr. Take a walk around.

I like the rain a lot.. the heavy, thickish ones that made the streetlights sparkle; the ones which made u deaf to everything else except your own breathing and thoughts and memories; the ones that make you cry. They are beautiful.

I like the wind a lot too... the ones that whipped at your face, drying up the tears that's just seeped out from your eyes; the ones which chill your bones so that you can't hurt anymore; the ones that wrap you in their icy arms; the ones that says "I Love You". They are amazing.

Ohh well... I'm feeling exceptionally lyrical today... prolly coz i feel like i'm missing out on something/someone in my life. Hmm.. and there really is nothing more for me do except to wait and see. Perhaps pray... maybe hope. Oki... maybe i'll feel something else tmr... but for now till then... adieu~

Mere.

2006-11-28T20:58:00.000-08:00

Look up to the skies today... Mr J made a beautiful sculpture out in the big blue thing. A-W-E-S-O-M-E~!

Appreciate what u have, what ppl. gave, what u gave, what you're giving, what you don't have, what you will have what ppl. have, what they don't have, what they will have, what we can give, what we can take, what he or she is giving...
The thing is APPRECIATE.

I am in love with what i have now... My family, my friends, my pets, my passion, even the school... haha... and I'm positively in love with you.

aHhh~~~ Lounges on me platform floor and staring at the blue skies with fluffy thingies all over the place. =) I'm hApPy today... and things do look beautiful when u're happy. But why happy? I don't really noe.. haha.. juz feel like it perhaps.. and it's pretty good to feel this way... ^-^

Okies... Igtg... such is a mere blog entry of possible nothingness... but it's to let you, YOU and You noe tht i appreciate. =)

Yesterday...

2006-11-28T08:11:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, 28th Nov 2006 (Tuesday), a whole bunch of us ADMers went out to nUaH~

OMG... it's been such a long time since i've used tht word. nUAH. Nuah. NuAh. NUAH. nuah....
ok.. i'm happy~! ^-^

Haha... went to school in the erm... mid-afternoon, met Lillian and talked about my script (IOTA) and also analysed some viewpoints to take upon when approaching a film. Interesting~

Afterwards, we took a long bus ride (174) to the Botanical Gardens. The main entrance's changed... Beautiful but more artificially sculpted... i missed the old days when u juz run in from the small main gate and come face to face with tall trees and the large open field... Ohh well... We walked a bit, mainly driven by the urge to go toilet and then it's about waiting. It's always about "waiting" in ADM.

Well, maybe it happens a lot elsewhere too... Maybe it happens anywhere with a group of humans who know each other... wHo nOes... we jUz tend to Be waiting for someBody or something All the timE.

Finally, after having the same Golden Retriever walking by us thrice, we moved onto The Place for dinner... Haha.. termed it The Place because i still can't get the name. Anyways... it's a good dinner (Jia Lian Wu Mei) - so concluded by Danny. And the place is really damn niceeee... Hee~ Got approached by the manager asking us if anyone's interested to part-time as a waiter/waitress there... haha.. Should see Jia Hui's face...she's damn happy lar...

Okies.. moving on... some of the Easterners left for the North-East Line and the remaining peeps went off to Holland Village. Got my first dose of Essential Brews and is feeling totally happy with it.. =D haha... Talked and chat a bit... ppl's planning our 1 month holiday.. trying to squeeze 3 months worth of entertainment out of it.. and viOLa~! It is done. gEez... this holiday's gonna be fun. =)

Ohh well.. need to be doing something now.. so..
Chowz~

the SEM ends...

2006-11-26T21:32:00.000-08:00

The final closure of NTU, ADM Year 2 Sem 1 for the year 2006. DATE: 26th Nov 2006

"There is more to see than can ever been seen, More to do, than can ever be done..."

- Yup... it summarizes what we've been thru this sem.. I think.

Ohh well... a couple of days ago.. we screened our own short films and also animations and displayed photographs and designs tht we made over the sem. I'd nv been more proud of my fellow schoolmates.

Touched is the word when you see the auditorium being filled up nearly to the max. And pple. clapping and cheering you on when u went up the stage, thanking them in return. The tedious, sweat and work laden process rewarded. It's a really great feeling...

Elgin's short film "Nineteen, Twenties" won this yr's Cannon's Point & Shoot Camera. I loved his film. His approach to the subject matter, or rather, theme in this case is ultra sensitive. Beautiful visuals and convincing narration. A truely beautiful film...

There are a couple others which left a deep impression in my mind, Jia Hui's "伴", Michael's "Cold Talk", Danny's "Hangman", ShiQi's "Melancholia", Annette's "Mother", ZiHan's "Embryo" and Hanafi's "Fin." Also... the rest of the class did really good, our short films came out and around and we're all proud of it, a round of applause to each and everyone!

Then there's StopMotion exhibit.. OMG.. u guys roc for having the ability to put up such a great show in juz 3 months.. There are some ultra goOd work with Industrial standards... Like WeiKeong's "White".. WhOooOhooo!!!

And there's 3D production despite the tempermental Maya and stuffy workplace.. YuAnWen, YaoCheng and Sara Chong...u guys nailed it!!!

Photographers' display was equally amazing.. Alexcia and Aida's were really beautiful and engaging.

Figure Painting class's gorgeous exhibit of Oil Painted Models were astounding, Steffi and Julianne did really well.

Lastly, there's the digital painters: WeiHao, Raymond, Royston, Siyuan and many others... A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!!!!

After the whole sem which was unanimously agreed to be labelled under inhumanely stressful and physically draining... A few of us students - 20 to be exact... went off to join the FLY BY NIGHT VIDEO CHALLENGE 2006. Haha... Can u believe it?? Ohh well... Things pple. do.. But anyways.. it's been a really rewarding experience and we all come to learn about working with limited resources and time and stuff.. But it's great.. We've all had fun and this event's made our bond even closer. Anyway... 3 out of 5 teams from ADM got the top 10 short films award for the event!! Cheers To evErYoNe!!! and i also wanna thank Chia who's there for us till 6 am.. whilst we film at an insanely slow pace just because our mind's no longer functioning that well with 3 to 5 days of sleepless nights.. Haha... *Happiness* But well.. it's over now... And I'm sure we all learnt more than a thing or two from the overall experience. Hope we'll keep living life like so... pursuing our dreams and being productive all at once!

Cheerio~!

To him.

2006-11-18T22:50:00.000-08:00

These stuff I'm going to say... haha.. so funny, coz the person intended to hear will prolly not, scrape tht, never come to reading this. >.< Ohh well... gonna say it out anyway...

Yup i'm waiting for you to make up your mind. No, not becoz I'm afraid tht you'll cheat me. No, not becoz i'm afraid that you're not true to me.

But rather, I want you yourself to be sure. I want you to feel free and happy when you're with me. Smile without worry, without care. Without a single moment thinking "oh gosh.. I want to noe how she feels about me.. will she regret being with me..?"

No I'll not regret.. coz I like you as who you are. And I can safely tell you tht I'll stick to my part.. as long as you do yours. A promise? Nah... promises are meant to be broken. This is but a simple course of my actions.

I don't care about being Romantic purposefully,
I like the way you look at me.
I don't care about the past,
As long as you're here with me.

You want to take care of me? You want to be there for me?
I'll need you to say something.. what are we now? Who am I now?

Will you tell me?

Yes, I'm waiting...

DUst CovEred CovEr

2006-11-12T02:00:00.000-08:00

*BLowS AwAy dUst*
*Coughs*
*BloWs SomeMore*

AHhhh... there, my long forgotten blog. Haha..It's been a couple of really whirlwind-like months. No time to play, no time to slack, no time to go home even. BLah. Be tht as it may... I'm really glad I've got friends and family around to support me.

Bloody deadlines and cold cruel reality... =P

Hmmz... feel the spasticity of the previous paragraph...Boy do i sound joval.. >.<
Anyway.. it's been a hectic plus confusing week.. Ok.. weeks. I DO NOT understand what's going on... seriously...
I don't understand the school, I don't get the dates, I don't get you. Haaz...

Be truthful to me. That's all I'm asking. IF there is a reason for you being here.. Lemme know the reason and I'd do my best to help if that is what you want. Or perhaps there really is more than a usual tingle? haha... God, i want to know too.

Blindfolds and ear muffs. Don't leave me in the dark. The truth is light and I'm blindly searching for it... if only you'll allow me.

gARh... >.<

Anyway... the stay-backers made a song, speaking about Year 2's inner most feelings:

听不到（Music adapted from 五月天的 “听不到“）

我的聲音太小，
Dean 在睡覺，
每天留在學校他可知道？
學校若是那麼小，
為何我說的話，他听不到？？？

我的聲音太小，
淚在漂，
每次對他說話他都落跑。
學小若是那麼小，
為何他的身影，我看不到？？？

他听不到．．．看不到．．．aaAAAahHHhh!!!!!

I've learnt...

2006-09-22T23:33:00.000-07:00

I've learnt to learn.

To seek to ask.

But watch and see to get its gist.

In Love, to give not to ask.

In Life, to give and take.

To view each day with hope and gay,

To simply stay ahead.

Have faith and faith in Him, His sake.

Keep promises and not forsake.

Live in just and not in want.

Make not an unwanted fuss.

Gain in wealth of knowledge.

Get the knowledge of wealth.

For money and power may seem enticing, but surely they're just the icing.

Time will not heal, but wounds make lessons, only if you'll just listen.

The gist of Life's not a simple feat, but fret not and lay all down upon His feet.

StEadiCam

2006-09-17T02:42:00.000-07:00

Woot! Had 2 consecutive workshops for Steadicam handling on Fri till Sat! Was rather fun operating these "toys" as put across by Boo... Me not tech. savvy person, only know pple. do.. i watch and learn and follow suit. Always believe in the "follow-ur-gut" theory when it comes to handling stuff.. Hee..

Stayed in school again... going to go mad with basement air soon... Haven't had the time to meet up with my babes from all over my life tht these sem.. bLAh. And there's the film production coming up.. Shit Stress. >.<

Jia Hui and I almost wanna transfer to Animation tht day... i nearly broke down at home, whilst staring at my pages of notes and trying locate a singular feasible BL***Y film idea that never came... =P MEHh... i feel like a rotting log.

Ohh well... I told myself, I need to get thru this. I CAN GET THRU THIS... and then I'll be able to handle anything. Really... So friends, forgive me if i seem a little distant these days.. coz i really need to focus on the film thingy. Family, thanks for all the understanding with me late nights and constant 'not-at-homism'. And to Him up there... I am praying everyday for all the strength and comfort that I can draw from You.

Ohh well... I NEED HELP!!! PLEASe REnder ur help to me by helping out as a crew on my shooting days... CAN? CAn? looking for frenz who can tahan extreme conditions and Ellenomia... aka "Ellen who's not herself, bracing on constant edginess". Please contact me and I will tell you the ways in which u can help me with.. and of course, I will give u a basic film outline with the details for the shoot. PleASeeee HELp! Thanks!

Ohh.. and by the way, anyone out there who knows someone who owns a big, well trained dog, and who doesn't mind helping me out in the shoot as one of my main cast (the dog) working on no pay but with transportation and meals covered. Please gimme a call, msg or e-mail. Need Help URgenTly!!!

Ok... Ellen... breathe... O.O
Going to eat Sakura later... relax..... AHHHHhHHhhhhHH!!!!! >.<

Days... (2 poems)

2006-09-12T07:44:00.000-07:00

There is a saying, of many sayings that days come and go.

I seem to agree, but really, time never did flow.

It stopped that day, when you went away.

I mean you're still here, but there's now lesser to say.

The heart cries. begs and perhaps, eventually will wither and die.

Yet for now it'll bleed, adorning a crown that pricks...

5 more days to the wedding, big cheers and all.

4 more days to the wedding, we're all having a ball.

3 more days to the wedding, the bride starts to weep.

2 more days to the wedding, a relationship to fix.

1 more day to the wedding, perhaps a priest?

On the day of the wedding, lovely banquet, a grand wedding feast;
Where's the bridegroom full of cheer? Upstairs in the cardboard, no one knows he's here.
Who saw the bride with a face of glowing light? Down below the cliffs, and no she's not taking a hike.

Ok.... i'm bored.

The one....

2006-09-10T07:59:00.000-07:00

Holy Macaroni! The biggest monster film is HERE in TOWN!!!!

Forget "Godzilla", ignore "Jurrasic Park II and III" (Jurrasic Park I's awesome), down with "King Kong" and "Resident Evil"!!!Seriously, this IS the REAL STUFF!!!

="The Host"=
Combine the scandelous, secret-keeping government in "V For Vendetta" with the heart-warming parent and child relationship from "Be With You", add a dash of smart-ass humour from various movie spoofs like "Scary Movie" that is so close to real life situation, spice it up with some cool art directions from chaotic mass sequence in "The Day After Tomorrow" and mash it arnd with a generous amount of cool camera work and awesome sound effects. Not to mention, top it up with a relatively convincing monster.. Ok... at least better than the awkwardly scaled King Kong...

A concoction fit for the mass. The latest finest Korean movie piece set and presented before us.

Really good plot and excitingly paced, a movie well timed and planned to manipulate the audience's emotions skillfully... There was never a zoning out moment for the viewer, it's engage-engage all along. Here is a horror and thriller that is more than mere scares and screams, a film that over throws the Hollywood assumption of "more gore = more show"; this is a film with strong and moving undertones, a play on sarcasim and criticisms... a film of truth.

A MuSt WaTch Movie of the YeaR!!!

They say...

2006-09-09T06:19:00.000-07:00

My mum says "dun be too obvious. You can like... but dun show tht much."

My fren says "dun go liking a guy unless he expresses tht he likes u first."

An acquaintence says "dun think too much unless there is something to think about."

You said "i think tht girl should juz forget it if the guy nv expresses anything."

Unfair.
I wanna say, i wanna show... i wanna tell. Let me tell?
Perhaps it'd be the last thing i'll ever say to u. Perhaps... But...

aRGh.

2006-09-08T09:51:00.000-07:00

ME. me. mE. me. me. Me. me. me. me.

Repeat long enough and you might just hear it.

Ha.. ha..

I had an enjoyable day today. Was having fun looking at the exhibits, liked those that noe how to use the location and interlace their work with the space (courtroom). Then we had dinner at Changing Appetities (Marina Sq.), nice CReAMy CaRbOnArAaaaa... and a very sweet and responsible waitress... damn.. i can't remember her name. Then we went all the way back to Starbucks at City Hall... then it's home.. and it's 12am.

Do something if you know. Do something so tht i can know what else to do besides waiting. I hate waiting.
I am hallucinating now... thinking tht there might actually be something, but perhaps it's just nuthing. I can't speak, can't show, can't tell...

'PERHAPS' aka
- For all one knows, it could be, it may be, it's possible, possibly, conceivably; "literary" peradventure, perchance.

Ok lor...

2006-09-05T10:33:00.000-07:00

Ok lor... since u've said tht. I think there is no point in making known my stand.
I shall either just...

1.Swallow those thoughts
2.Completely forget about them

Ya.. like so. Easy and simple. Breathe Ellen... breathe....

多少?

2006-09-04T08:42:00.000-07:00

How much should a girl hold back in her love and admiration for you?

How much should a girl put in the hopes you did not promise?

How much should a girl reveal her liking for you?

How much how much will you give?

Ponder. Wait. Sit. Stand. Ponder. Wait. Sit.

hOw tiME FLiesSs~

2006-09-02T19:29:00.000-07:00

WhEee~

And then it's September.

Oh my goodness... before u know it, schoolwork's been piling up up and away...

Script-writing was fun, Lillian Wang is an interesting teacher and she always sprouts random impt. stuff at inconsistent intervals, therefore there's nv got to be a moment of Zzz (much as i want to) in her class; But Danny always manage to go O.o then o.O then -.- LOL! Dun think nObOdy sAww~

Film Production by Scott's super cool. The only class whereby my eyes are like O_O all the time. Hehe~ We get to watch selected clips from various films and they really opened my eyes to film techniques. Well but the workload's a little challenging, gotta squeeze my already non-existent brain for its juices.. IDEAs IDEAS ideaSss!!!

Digital Editing was... Hmmmm... We got a really nice teacher, Jan who's from Holland... Blah de blah... nice but i juz can't seem to keep myself awake at his lessons. >.<

Digital Painting was a whirlwind of sarcasism thrown at Photoshop by the Photoshop King himself. Hahaz.. Martin Constable with his witty British humour nv cease to entertain, and teach. Learning a lot from him and more to come!
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Sound Design was *EEsh*, yesh, *eEsH* Haiz... we finally got to touch Pro Tools after like 4 lessons of starting at a single comp? But what's more >_< was that the teacher seems to be progressing at an infinite pace of assumed you-know-what-thisIS. OHh Well... we shall see...

OkOk, tht's about all tht's in my curriculum for now.. I gtg do work now.. Shall blog more about my days if i have the time..

人生 (L.I.F.E)

2006-08-12T10:05:00.000-07:00

I was walking in the crowd today and that day.
Pushed, jostled, jabbed and poked.

Still I moved on.
Still we moved on.

The person on my left came and left as a stranger.
On my right a fren, we chatted a bit.
He got rushed onwards by a man wearing a suit, carrying a briefcase and a pair of sweaty palms.

I don't know him.

Still I moved on.
Still we moved on.

I got stepped on. I looked ahead, angry.
She apologised, rather sincerely, i think.
I can't remember her face.
I walked a bit faster, desparate for air.
We stopped at a junction, waiting... Just waiting.

And then we moved on.
And I moved on.

We're all struggling, the hustle bustle, to get out of it all.
Heads bent against the air that reeks of sweat and smoke.
Hearts closed and placed far far away in a safe chest.

Still we moved on.
Still I moved on.

That's just what I know.
A statement, a theory, a claim with no beginning, conclusion, no end.

UEDs

2006-08-06T07:27:00.000-07:00

WHAt thE TOOts is UED??? One may wonder... Allow me:

"Unbelievably Exciting Day"

Hahaz... It's really been some really cool days full of awesomeness... Hehe...
Was slacking arnd throughout holidays before and after the film project, that is until i've decided to help out in Cluedo... then FOC.. then some other film project, then the school... then the FuN juz kept rolling in~!!!

WoOt. Get to noe some really nice pple (ADMers and Non-ADMers) these days... Feeling really blessed to have them all as frenz.. ^-^ There's Caroline, Kar Man, Ying Han, Jasmine, Shi Qi, Royston, Danny............. SOOooOoooOo MAnY~!! I'm a lucky girl.. =)

Anyway... WE WENT UBIN AND WATCHED FIREWORKS YESTERDAY!!!!!! No photos... YET. But soon there'll be! ^-^ Was really fun and enjoyable, i'll talk more when the pictures are in. Anyway... they're recorded memories by Good-O-Joe and Would-Be-World-Famous-Photographer-Jasmine... SOooo Ladies and Gentlemen... Please hold ur breath till the time comes.. (",)

Ok... then I went for City Harvest's 17th Year Anniversary Celebration at the Indoor Stadium. I was like O.o when i got there. The WhOLe DAmn StaDiUm's FuLLy SEATEd, and it's FIRgGing Only HALF of thE CHurCH~!!! wOot. Cheers ppl.~! Was a really awesome celebration.. really. I particularly enjoyed the songs.. very inspiring (esp. Glorious Redeemer) and touching. Pastor Kong's a really powerful speaker too..But i'm more of a 'song' person when it comes to praise and worship. And i made a new fren.. name's Cindy.. nice girl.. friendly~! =)

Haaz.. I realize i'm really a weird person.. I go all squeamish pre-ordeal... and when time comes.. I sit thru and enjoy the whole event throughout.. Hahaz.. To Royston IF u read my blog.. I don't feel uncomfortable being in a new place alone, coz i can either go 'OFF' mode and self-entertain/or make new frenz here and there. Today was even easier, coz i'm sincerely interested to go and have a look around.. to listen to His words... So i'm ok there... =) No Prob de. In Fact, i really enjoyed myself~

Afterwards, i head off to Istana to find me family.. It's the OPEN HOUSE today:

PoSe~! Uncle's the photographer.. shall photoshop him in one day.. HEhe

HAhaHAhaha~!!! Bimbos on the lawn of the IStAnA!!!

Me UnCle the diligent photographer...

Guards of the Istana... erm... Posing for camera's while waiting for Mr President. =)

First Glimpse of Mr NAthan~!!! I was taking loads of photos with a camera held high above my head, not knowing if i even aimed right mind you...

Mr Nathan talking to a man...

Mr Nathan suddenly turns around and walk and...

OMG hIS's SuDDenLy TherEee In FRONt Of ME!!!! Was soo shocked tht i only managed a half smile and a feeble 'hEe' before i ran off to hide myself. >.<

PREtty ShOT!

Nice tree in Istana for Children to climb.. LOL.. how many countries actually allow this???

3 Cheers for Me Sis whO did a Jump (though not really successful) right out of the Istana, admist the crowd and in front of 3 policemen.. LOL.. Nicely~

OkOk.. enough of crappy picturess le... Pulau Ubin and Fireworks de shall and will come later!!!

2006-07-31T09:19:00.000-07:00

Maybe it's another Big Fat Fatal Mistake...

Ok.. Big, Fat, not Fatal... a mistake, nonetheless. Blah...

Well.. who can say, argue, to tell a heart not to fall? And Who then can instruct a person to deny a fallen heart?
Maybe i'm wrong.. But I dun noe.. something tells me to continue.. Be it a return-less deal. I'm here to accept. Pass me the treaty, the contract. A paper, some ink and business's on its way. gArH. Makes one feel so tiny and helpless sometimes...

Passion driven, fear concealed, love blinded, linguistically injured,
I stumbled forward...

Darkness?

Yes...

I've long expected it... But to accept?
Perhaps to adapt?

Soon then, I'll grow used to the cold...

Soon...

12:33am

2006-07-30T07:46:00.000-07:00

I juz completed the whole of LOTR extended version DVDs watching today... Courtesy of Jia Hui who's currently riding free in the plains of Inner Mongolia.

Return Of The King rocks in the extended version!!! OMG... we lost out sOooOoo Much watching it in the cinema yoz... >.<
Nice visuals and stuff...

"It is but a shadow of thoughts that you love... I cannot give you what you seek."
-Aragon to Eowyn

Ok... if any guy actually said that to my face.. I'm juz gonna break down and cry.
The heart will break for 2 things:
1. for the ultimate rejection; all too obvious and yet none stated
2. for the loss of such an articulate gentleman and failure to capture his heart

Haiz.. What is love but a word?

Pardon me for zee randomness... But my mind's a complete blank now. *ish*
Anyway.. igtg... shall go sleep and Recharge my mind's strength. =)

NICE.

2006-07-28T09:45:00.000-07:00

NICE |nīs| adjective 1 pleasant; agreeable; satisfactory : we had a nice time | that wasn't very nice of him | Jeremy had been very nice to her. • (of a person) pleasant in manner; good-natured; kind : he's a really nice guy. 2 fine or subtle : a nice distinction. • requiring careful thought or attention : a nice point. 3 archaic fastidious; scrupulous.

Hahaz... been using this word sooo many times these days.. i just have to look up on its meaning.
Ok.. so there's its meaning.. Anyway.. i'm feeling soo tired sooo easily these days.. Then still got those stupid rashes...

>.<

But camp's been really fun.. I missed it.. =T Haaz.. got to noe soo many new faces.. My brain's overflowing with names.
Jia Hui juz left for Inner Mongolia.. Should have been on tht plane with her.. MEhh.. Stupid fainting spells... Muz try to stay healthy now. Ohh Geez.. it'd be soOoo Coool to go.. hEEsh. Anyway.. hope she's gonna be safe and happy~!

Going Kbox tmr!!! So fun! Can't wait.. Oh wellz.. i'm tired again.. Shall go concuss on me lovely tatami soon.

Nicee~

Past 50s...

2006-07-09T17:50:00.000-07:00

Randomly adding in this post juz to pushed meself past the 50th post... >.< StuPid Ying...

Golden Rules:
1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
2. Choose 5 person to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person’s tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with “I have been tagged!” then do this.

Your 10 Favourites
Favourite Colour: Brown and Green
Favourite Food: Decent Tom Yam Soup (Don't u dare give me the crappy ones.. i'll return the entire bowl, contents and all.)
Favourite Song: Bad Day by Daniel Powter... Dun ask me why >.<
Favourite Movie: Too many…
Favourite Sport: Cycling counts?
Favourite Season: The Rainy oNEsss~
Favourite Day of the Week: ThuRsday
Favourite Ice Cream Flavour: Black Sesame
Favourite Book: Too many...
Favourite anime/cartoon: Not really into this...

Currents
Current mood: Tired, Blur, Floaty...
Current clothes: Fila Polo top... Jeans..
Current desktop: A weird, surrealist drawing...
Current toe nail colour: NAtURal pInk.. Blah de blah
Current time: 8.55am Singapore Time...
Current Annoyance(s): Floatiness and a bad stomach
Current thought: Finishing this quiz...
Current girlfriend/boyfriend: Me, myself and I.
Current book you are reading: -

Firsts
First Best Friend: 4 dearies from me primary school.. still are..
First Crush: KL
First Movie: O_o I lost track.
First piercing: Recently... Erm... say mid of 2005?
First lie: hehe.. Primary sch...
First music: ??
First car: Bus 11.. me legssss...
First handphone: Motorola.. something...

Lasts
Last cigarette: Never had one. Don’t intend to.
Last drink: 2 days ago..? MY PARENTS ARE WITH ME LAR... >.<
Last car ride: Yesterday
Last crush: Shall not say.. lol
Last movie seen: Errrrmmm... Silent Hill in the cinema.. Pirates (1) on TV.. 5th time i watched.. =P
Last phone call: Wake up call to somebody
Last CD played: ERRrrmmm.. like wad... 2 years ago? can't remember..

Have You Evers
Have you ever dated one of you best friends: Nope
Have you ever broken the law: Nope
Have you ever been arrested: Nope
Have you ever skinny-dipped: Nope
Have you ever been on TV: Nope
Have you ever kissed someone you didn’t know: No way... =P

5 Things You Are Wearing:
1. Clothes
2. Earrings
3. Contact lens
4. Heavy headache
5. Tiredness written all over me face

4 Things You Have Done Today:
1. blogged
2. woke up
3. watched World Cup Finals.. ITALY WON! FRANCE's Zidane got Red Card... >.< MEep. He's the only guy i like in France...
4. brushed my teeth

3 Things You Can Hear Right Now:
1. ambience sound
2. water pelting into the koi pool
3. tip-tap-tapping on the keyboard

2 Things You Can’t Live Without:
1. Phone
2. Computer

4 Things You Do When You Are Bored:
1. Blog
2. Watch movie...
3. Eat
4. Scribble stuff

5 People I Tagged to Do This:
1. Joe (MUAhahaha)
2. Phoebe
3. Shenlyn
4. Jenniferrrr
5. You who's reading thissss...

Microphone Struggle

2006-07-09T06:54:00.000-07:00

I AM OFFICIALLY DISTURBED.

Haha.. here I am... trying my best to do up some designs.. and there they are, Mum and Dad, trying to conjure up some manual for microphone usage.

They are singing (close to screaming) into mics that have the indicator lights for 'Batt Low' on... Absolutely no regard to whether their voices got projected out as intended... HAhaz~ Cute parents...

Went to this really nice place at this really ulu area for dinner juz now.. Somewhere behind the right of Queenstown Library... Haha.. shall gather kah kees there for dinner sometime... Everything sounds damn random... >.<

HehEe... OkOk.. Gonna start work on the banner designs soon.. Blah de blah.. tired... GaRh. Ohh wellz...

PictUreSss

2006-07-05T09:53:00.001-07:00

LOoK and EnJoy~!!!

HAha.. Nice Wide Angles... blah de blah.. TooK this while cycling at East Coast Beach with Royston, Jia Hui, ShuFang, YingHan and Jit... Wanna go cycle soon again. ALL the way this time ok??

Jit and Jeff by the viewing gallery.. No.. tht little thingy at the corner's not Joe.. Haha~

ConTrAstTtt... Nice pic... in my own opinion. Hee~

My DeaRrrr AunT MabEl~!!! And mE and mua Sis.. haha.. We're feeling rather narcissistic tht day...

My NaiNai inspecting this impressive display of puppets and toys.. Haha.. My Uncle's blurry~

Muahaha... Me and my BelOved NaiNai~!! *MUAcKies* We celebrated her birthday today~

Did i tell u about my Ultra cute Cousin?? Ta DA~!! Sure gonna be a shuai ge next time! He's alrdy walking and saying random things like JIE! NAI! and MAI! lol...

Last but not least..... Lu Gun from 'Gong'!!!!!! OMG he's one super cute hottie!!!! HAha.. I'm crazy over him for tht show. That is, till he had a set, "I'm-gonna-cry-look". mEHh... but still cute.. >.< ARGH... can't help myself!!! WheeEeEee~

I think I know now...

2006-07-02T20:08:00.000-07:00

Never ask for to much. Never be discontented with what you alrdy have. That's it, NeVer.

In school now, waiting for Jia Hui to come with my Beloved Tom Yam You Mian from the sewage water-place... LOL.
Gonna burn the DVDs by today. Everything, BY TODAY... Helping Carmen out tmr...

Yesterday was fun... went to eat at this teochew restaurant somewhere in Chinatown to celebrate my DEaREsSssst NaiNai's 70th birthday~!!! LoL... nearly all of the family's here, where art thou my aunt Hui Lee? Cousins are there, took much corny pictures... shall post some up later.

I wAnNa gO KayAking tHis ThURsssss!!!! wOot. So fun~ Get more sunburnt... Nobody cares. Haha..

I wanna sit it thru and wait it out now... See how things are gonna go. Maybe there's something, maybe there aren't any. But he's nice... then again, I might not be wad he wants... mEHh. A fren told me about waiting out for Yuan Fen... Hmmm... Shall do tht too.

Sit down, wriggle toes, look at fingers, stretch arms, stare.
AhhhHHHh!!! Where's my breakfast/lunch??? gARh. Hungry... >.<

Just words.

2006-06-29T08:50:00.000-07:00

You can't force anything to happen ur way in this world... Haha.. Point taken.

It's kind of a Good and Bad thing. Of course.. it exerts a certain control on the order and balance on this world.
Hmm.. let's see... U can force an argument. U can force urself to study. U can force way thru a stuck door...
U can't on the other hand... force ur way thru a traffic jam. U can't force an appeasement.

And U sure as hell can't force one to love.

Or even to like. A teensy, weensy bito...? NO Amico. =P In nessun modo cara mia... >.<
Haiz... So i'll leave it as zat. Another... presumbably wrong hope. I think...Again.
Haaz.. guess it comes down to no more than wad I have now: AKA friendship.

Hahaz.. a bit tired of tht le... When will it end?

Riesco sperare e pregare... niente di più.
I don't want many experiences... solo una volta è adeguato.
Semplicemente quel speciale qualcuno.

Haiz.. Domanda allusiva: Tu il una?

Typed in a language which i'll prolly forget 3 days into typing.. But i thinks I get the gist.. Haaz.. most of it's in the head alrdy.. Haha.. Offrire il mio amore, arbitrio rispondere affermativamente?

Buona serata. Sweet dreams my friend...

CaRs. THE omen. SiLenT HiLL

2006-06-23T23:19:00.000-07:00

TRaLala~ Caught 3 movies this month~! CoOL stuff...

.CARS.
A 2 hours long animation brought to u by.... PIXAR~!!! and walt disney...
Got some really cool songs inside, fav. of many? "A Long time ago, but not so long ago......."

LOL.

The plot on the whole's rather bland, as in not entirely original. It's the usual, badass hero that finally realized that Life's not just about Me, Myself and I. But catch those tiny stories (and lines) woven in between, they're touching and really sweet~ It's already worth up to 7.50bucks. Holy PoRsche!!!

Spice it up with some awesome (geez, i hate tht word) sound effects and almost realistic modelling/rendering, the VRRooM vvRRrOoOm is thoroughly convincing. NeAt! A 8.50bucks movie on the whole~

.THE OMEN .
I hate movies that comes with the THE word up in front. it's like, Oh Geez... I dunno what this is? Maybe... it's THE MOVIE? ShEeSh. Plot goes something like this, upfront and forward. There's something wrong with this child!!!

Yup. And everyone, except the actor (note: no 's'), knew just what's wrong with Damien, the spawn of the Demon, who's constantly dressed looking like Chucky. Ohh the irony...

Cool editing though, the speed cut, the interjection of mild humour and light scenes right before a big wHooHa can catch many off guard. Story is fast paced, so it's good for those who can't stand suspense...

Still, i can't understand one tiny detail. WHY DOES IT LOOK SO MUCH LIKE FINAL DESTINATION??? mEHh. Ok.. i'm good. Go watch to find out...

.SILENT HILL.
The loudest movie I've ever watched. The definite opposition to aural therapy. But the kick is in the sound man... And though I'm no gamer... I can see why Silent Hill fans are going GaGa over this.

IT LOOKS LIKE A GAME.

The scenes, the characters (I love the ripper which took form of Sharon and Eliz... bah..I can't remember her name. SauCy~), even the creatures, they actually move like those weird, scary, stuff-squirting things in games.. gArH. The pains that Christophe Gans took...

Subtle seems like the last word used to describe this loud and stomach-turning movie. But subtle it is, to be able to re-create a game on big screen that actually convinced the fans. wOoT!

Simple and straight forward plot:

Sleepwalking (adopted)daughter caused distressed mother to bring her to the place in which she believe can rid her of the illness, a ghost town of a place where supposedly, underground fires still raged, leaving it dangerous for any human being to live in. She ignores the protest of husband and finally arrived at the town.
A car-crash, mother wakes up to find beloved daughter missing. AHHh~!!!! And so she began to read the lines in the script which mainly consist of... "SHARoOON~!!!" and "Hey...HEY! SHAROOooOON~!!!!!!" you get the point. A siren sounded, and suddenly thingss.... come to life in this sleepy, ash-ridden town. Creatures from the inferno of hellish realm..Creatures that kill, slaughter, skin and torture...

Scared. Trapped. And highly dillusional.

Mother escapes, still reading off the lines of the script, got caught up by a hot police officer named Cybil, or Sybil.. can't remember... Both of them finally got the understanding and trust of each other and sets off to find... Non other than, Sharon. They barely escaped a second Darkness and found out that there are other human beings still alive. Human beings who sought the refuge of a church whenever Darkness falls and there and there, the secret of the dark town's revealed.

I personally liked the ending, a hollow, hopeless kind of disturbing end which says... "Try as you might, you won't be able to escape. So might as well, (like the tagline of the movie) enjoy your stay~"

Don't go for the story, for there'd be non. Ghost Town, Missing Child, Secret. Try instead for the stunning and highly graphic visual effects, sound and music...you'd be well-rewarded.